I wonder why I'm here, since I've been reading some stories for over 3 months, and I finally decided to create an account and tell a little bit of my story, as it's close to an important date because if I'm here I really mean it.
I want to change... so badly.
Throughout my life I always had difficulties finishing one college, jumping from course to course which I managed to finish the third one for the sake of doing it until I finally got a job with 21 years due to said course, with currently 22 yo.
I was introduced to online betting from Tennis to Games through a friendship, which I ended and parted ways without even telling them from at the end of October. Ironically, I knew from the beginning that I was fragile, as I always wanted to bet, at least try, it all started so small, with $10 to $25, chasing losses is stupid and I should never have begun doing that.
I live in a 2nd World Country, lost from April to November from this year presumably $2,282. or $2,500 if you may.
I know it's something little compared to several stories I've heard here. I always saved all my money, to the point where I wasn't satisfied paying for things over $50.
I wonder what happened to me, and why it happened, but I can say several factors since I started working from home office and as my first job, I had a terrible experience of how easy it was to get my salary, in addition, month after month I felt like I was not near to be humble anymore, something I always was. Possibly what led to this besides that, was the fact that my dating became a roller coaster of problems after 1 year, in which part of the money would be used to travel and find the person, but we are now apart for 2 weeks without contacting each other, slowly moving on, but I really respect her.
I've been sleeping badly for 3 months now, but yesterday was the first case where I really felt pain thinking I'm going down a path that will set my life back twice as much since I also got a job late.
I'm not gonna stop work, but I only had 3 hours of sleep, what led me on track was surprisingly taking a warm shower at 4 am.
I come to say a little about myself, this year was incredible, I met someone incredible, I got my first job that I'm proud of, but I also lost contact with this person (she doesn't know about me being through it) and all the sweat I put into this job, that once was my savings became an experience.
Like many, I want to be happy, I want to see people overcome this common enemy, today I'm taking my first step to take everything from gambling in my life, be it websites, or influencers on Twitter or wherever.
When January's salary arrives, I will buy myself a gift and for my brother, and start my journey accumulating savings, appreciating small things, but also saving for dreams, like building my first PC was one that was supposed to be fulfilled this year.
I want to be happy and I want everyone to be happy too. Would love to hear some words or stories.
Hello absentee
I hope you are feeling well in this next day once you hear this message, if I may, how are you feeling after a day without being able to try to seek for it again? Stay strong!
As for me, I'm taking this step as well about baning and deleting my account. It is needed.
I'm a few days(2-3) without gambling, I've gotta stay strong, it is time to move forward and enjoy life without keeping digging my own grave further and further. I just hope with the next paycheck I won't have this desire to continue and do something crazy, as for now, I'm creating those barriers.
Appreciate for the talk.
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Merry Christmas for you too friend.
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