Hello and welcome to another post by me, I have been thinking of all the help I need moving forward financially to get a better place for my family.
Today I stopped for a second thinking oh if I win the lottery or do this or that I will have that success and freedom for them.
The reality check was what happened in the news recently in southern turkey and sirya . I live in a flat and that could of been me and my family dead or stuck under the rumble waiting for help from the brave rescuers who are working non stop to try to save people.
What I must remember is that I am lucky to have what I have in my life now and what I have worked for and not gambled for. What would of happened if I had taken that first bet is another full on crash into insanity that I can't deal with right now.
I should be grateful for what I have and the love I have in my life, yes I have made mistakes and hopefully I am forgiven by friends and family and I have built up that trust we my partner.
What I have learned is if I start gambling again the best thing I can ever do is just tell my partner as soon as possible to stop the financial damage ASAP
I notice many people on thier journeys either on day 1 or week 1 but the Ture inspiration are those who have done years who I really enjoy reading that give me hope that when I have those thoughts they don't turn into urges to gamble again.
Giving advise to others I struggle with but try my best to support anyone else with this hellish addiction.
For those in much worse positions gambling or struggling in life I pray for you all.
Dave101
Hi Dave 101,
You are absolutely right about being grateful for what you have. As a recovering addict I know all too well about the tunnel vision of my life only and the poor me poor me attitude. For me the big part of my recovery is learning to have the ability to use other people that are in a tougher place than myself to centre me and pull my out of my self-pity that ultimately leads my back to relapse.
Kind regards
Hi Dave 101,
You are absolutely right about being grateful for what you have. As a recovering addict I know all too well about the tunnel vision of my life only and the poor me poor me attitude. For me the big part of my recovery is learning to have the ability to use other people that are in a tougher place than myself to centre me and pull my out of my self-pity that ultimately leads my back to relapse.
Kind regards
Thanks you are perfectly right walliss
Hi diary,
I’ve just pulled myself out of the darkest insanity imaginable, an endless pit of worry and despair only saved by a long drive I took to calm my head. Genuinely thought about ending it all but I came back to earth. I’ve been gambling for over 15 years now, started with online poker and progressively got worse onto the FOBTs roulette and casino. I’ve never been able to end the cycle - paid end of month and broke the following day, endless debt worries and losing relationships with family and friends. I’ve got through a hellish couple of days with my mental health but I’m learning to be grateful for each day and pulling through. Big respect to all of you pulling through this hellish illness - we’ve got this ??
@solaris you got this, there might be bumps in the road but we all stumble and all we can do is keep fighting back for the sake of family and friends and most of all yourself! Being more present in life and not dreaming of fantasy's and ridiculous out comes from gambling is best imo.
I hope you continue on this website and keep reading the story's because some remind us of those darks days you have recently had. Let's keep it's bright and light with a gamble free life.
Dave101
Hi
Your honesty is your strength and also you are reducing your fears.
It is a very lonely painful fear filled life being an addict in action.
Getting to meetings was important for me.
The therapies help me learn to live a much healthier life.
At the beginning I neeeded more and more meetings just to be able to abstain one day.
Therapies were opening up emotionally.
Honest therapies reduced my fears.
Honest therapies helped me get to know and understand my self in celarer ways.
Honest therapies helped me get to help me see and feel my self in other people.
Because we are consumed by our addctions and obsessions just indicate that we are more emotionally vulnerable than we think we are.
Saying I am fine or nto so bad was a lie to my self.
In time facing our fears reduces our fears.
Love and peace.
Dave L
Hey Dave L, greetings from a newbie. Thanks for sharing your experience with addiction and recovery. It's inspiring to hear that you've been able to overcome your addiction and find a healthier way of living. I agree that honesty and therapy can be powerful tools in reducing fears and gaining a deeper understanding of ourselves.
It takes a lot of courage to face our fears and admit that we need help, but it's an important step in the recovery process. I'm glad that you found support through meetings and therapies and that they've helped you to connect with others and see yourself in a different light.
It's true that addiction and obsession can make us feel more emotionally vulnerable than we realize, but by acknowledging that vulnerability and seeking help, we can start to heal and move forward.
Thanks again for sharing your story, and I wish you continued success on your journey towards love and peace.
Take care,
Travis
I want to share my story
As a student, I struggled with procrastination and a lack of focus. It was a constant source of anxiety and stress for me, and it often left me feeling overwhelmed and unprepared.
Seeking help was the first step in addressing my problem. I reached out to a tutor, who helped me develop better study habits and organizational skills. This gave me a greater sense of control and helped me feel more confident in my abilities.
In addition to practical solutions, I also sought out therapy. Through talking about my fears and concerns with a mental health professional, I was able to gain greater insight into my own behavior and thought patterns. This allowed me to identify the underlying causes of my procrastination and work on developing more productive habits.
As I continue on my journey of self-improvement, I have come to appreciate the value of honesty and self-reflection. By confronting our fears and insecurities head-on, we can begin to live more fulfilling and authentic lives.
Love and peace,
Travis
Err, can anyone please tell me how many of my posts will be invisible until moderation?
Thanks.
Err, can anyone please tell me how many of my posts will be invisible until moderation?
Thanks.
I am not 100% sure, it should be visible but if the person isn't tagged then they won't get a notification fyi
Just seen your nice message to Dave L ?
Hey Dave L, greetings from a newbie. Thanks for sharing your experience with addiction and recovery. It's inspiring to hear that you've been able to overcome your addiction and find a healthier way of living. I agree that honesty and therapy can be powerful tools in reducing fears and gaining a deeper understanding of ourselves.
On essay it takes a lot of courage to face our fears and admit that we need help, but it's an important step in the recovery process. I'm glad that you found support through meetings and therapies and that they've helped you to connect with others and see yourself in a different light.
It's true that addiction and obsession can make us feel more emotionally vulnerable than we realize, but by acknowledging that vulnerability and seeking help, we can start to heal and move forward.
Thanks again for sharing your story, and I wish you continued success on your journey towards love and peace.
Take care,
Travis
When I posted this, I was notified, but about the approval of the rest ones - nothing.
Anyway, I got you. Thanks Dave.
I want to share my story
As a student, I struggled with procrastination and a lack of focus. It was a constant source of anxiety and stress for me, and it often left me feeling overwhelmed and unprepared.
Seeking help was the first step in addressing my problem. I reached out to a tutor, who helped me develop better study habits and organizational skills. This gave me a greater sense of control and helped me feel more confident in my abilities.
In addition to practical solutions: , I also sought out therapy. Through talking about my fears and concerns with a mental health professional, I was able to gain greater insight into my own behavior and thought patterns. This allowed me to identify the underlying causes of my procrastination and work on developing more productive habits.
As I continue on my journey of self-improvement, I have come to appreciate the value of honesty and self-reflection. By confronting our fears and insecurities head-on, we can begin to live more fulfilling and authentic lives.
Love and peace,
Travis
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