Hi guys, never really done this before. I'm 24 and been gambling since I was 19... Every penny I have earned has gone on gambling and now need to make a big change. It's affecting my relationship with my girlfriend and also affecting my work. It has also affected my driving in the past as I was unable to keep the payments on my insurance going as I gambled my wages away and ended up being caught with no insurance which then leaded to me losing my licence. I've known for a while now that I had an addiction with gambling but felt I could deal with it myself which I obviously couldn't.
Today I want to end this addiction and have handed control of my wages to my girlfriend. I find myself thinking about the thought of gambling but am trying to stay strong and keep my mind off it. I'm sitting at home today feeling bored as I am not going out for a gamble. 3nyts ago I went into the bookies with £8 and got it upto £300 and walked out with £0.... I felt disgusted with myself and am trying to think of that each time I think about going for a flutter.
Day 1 Of Forever......
Hi Scotlandboy90,
Welcome to the Forum!
It's great to read how motivated you are to make changes at the moment. Many areas of your life have been affected by gambling. You have reflected on this and now want to move forward differently.
You are right, there is no such thing as a "flutter" when you have a gambling problem. Maybe you will find it helpful for the time being to plan your days ahead, to make sure that you have other things to do when you are likely to feel like gambling, that there are people around you who you can talk to.
Recovery is not a smooth road, it takes a lot of strength and courage. If you feel that a chat with an advisor one to one could be helpful, why not call the HelpLine on 0808 8020133 or contact us on the NetLine https://icontact.mplaurora.net/ChatApp/JoinChat.aspx
You can also start a recovery diary in the "recovery diary" section of this Forum to keep track of your progress and to get support from others here.
All the best to you!
Kind wishes
Gabriele
Had the urge to have a gamble today. Thankfully I overcame the urge to do it but with it being payday again tomorrow I seem to change my way of thinking towards the end of the week. I seem to think it MIGHT be ok to have a wee flutter as I can afford to play with a wee bit as I will have fresh wages! tomorrow will be my 5th day off it and look to keep that going over the most difficult period of the week, SATURDAY! :/ good luck to everyone...
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