Been gambling for 2 years now losing a lot, stopping chasing losing going round and round in circles.
But today I have done something i have not done before i put a block on to stop gambling sites, so can not gamble even if i wanted to.
My reason why I have not done this before, silly i know but it is the free bonuses the gambling sites give that lure you back in i think if i just win off it i may win some of my money back, but never works as it ends up going back in.
My vice is the awful dreaded slots i am so addicted i play the same 2 or 3 games waiting for a big win as everyone one knows rarely comes in. I am so fed up all i think about is playing slots, i do not work i have 4 children youngest being 2 i never go out much i do suffer from anxity and depression.
These last few weeks i have lost a lot of money i just can not afford to lose. I gamble today and feel that dread feeling when all you want to do is crawl in bed and stay there.
Now the block is in place i dont know what to do as i'm always playing free bingo or demo slots.
Ant advice will be appresiated and here to support anyone going through the same thing.
Gambled today so day 0 bring on day 1
Installed K9 but blocked youtube why is this?
Well done on getting the blocking software installed, it's important to get as many blocks in place as possible in the early stages of recovery.
Do you only gamble online or do you goto bookies, arcades etc. If you do (or even if you don't) it's a good idea to self exclude as addiction will find a way to make you gamble even if it isn't your 'normal' way.
Use the time you're not playing slots to read as much as possible on here, there's a lot of good information and advice and it will make you realise that you are far from being alone in this struggle.
All the best in your recovery.
Phil
Thank you Phill for replying, i only gamble online on my laptop.
Do anyone know when you block one site you block them all has come out yet? i know it is this year, i think that will be my best option as there is more then one computer in this house and last year i stupidly used my son's to gamble but cant block his computer as he is over 18, and my family thinks i should be able to just stop by willpower alone ( which i was trying to do but failed) at the moment they are disgusted with me keep telling me stuff i already know, they just do not not understand gambling addiction i try to explain the urges the reason why i gamble. I know i will never win because i will never stop i tell myself this every day but don't stop them awfull urges i keep thinking just one more gamble one more 50 pound i may hit big never comes in funny though it dose on a demo game. I need to stop thinking of the money i lost but how? I am going to start a diary maybe writing my thought down will help
As far as I'm aware there isn't a 'global' self exclusion for online casinos yet.
If your family know about your addiction (I'm assuming this includes your son) then I don't see it being a problem putting blocking software on all the computers in the house (as much as they may be frustrated by it all they will surely appreciate you being proactive in your recovery).
Of course, the other option is to trawl Google or somewhere like CasinoMeister and sign up to and subsequently exclude from all the online casinos you can (this is one heck of a job so maybe reconsider the blocking option).
Reiterating what I said above, even if you don't use bookies, it may be a good idea to self exclude from local ones. Like I say, addiction is sneaky and, if it can't get its usual fix then you may find yourself looking for your dopamine hit in other places. I say this, not as some high and mighty, self-righteous twit, but a compulsive gambler who's made more mistakes than he cares to remember.
Certainly writing down your thoughts on here and tracking your progress will help. There is plenty of great advice here, it also helps keep you focussed and, above all, if you're here then you're not gambling!
People will echo this sentiment but, as difficult as it is, you MUST forget about the losses. Dwelling on financial losses will only trigger a panic to try and get the money back. Financial recovery will be a side effect of abstaining but there is no quick fix, take care of the gambling and the money will return in time. ANY urge to try and win money back will just make things worse so get those blocks in place in case the nagging thought becomes too strong.
All the best
Get someone else to put in the password and set it up in K9 options for you, there are some boxes that can be unticked to make it only block gambling sites and not the other stuff
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