Why do I keep doing it to myself ??

Gambling effects everyone differently 

Some are able to say to themselves ok I've won / lost XYZ.... time to call it a day 

Others want to try and win a million overnight and this is where the addictive part kicks in 

Gambling preys on greed , the games are designed so that after a certain amount of time playing you will inevitably loose 

Most people will not accept this and as such continue to play thinking they will win 

the crux of the problem is within your mind find it and you will fix yourself

You are asking the wrong question. Don't ask "what is wrong with me?" Ask, " what is wrong with gambling?"

It's not you, it's the gambling that is the problem, take gambling out of your life and you will be fine. Get into a recovery program and stick with it. Put controls/blocks in place.

How about you start by telling your partner the truth and not having another lie to carry around in your head? That lie needs feeding which feeds thoughts to keep gambling and win back what you’ve lost, and so the cycle continues. As you can’t stop, you can’t win.

If you don’t have a clean break how do you expect to stop? 
Talk to your partner and find some help.

Chris.

Without even thinking about it register with gamstop ...don't overthink or grieve the winnings you believe are ahead of you because there aren't any. It's scary and I imagine you can't bring yourself to do it. But please for your own sanity do it and then move forward because the constant worry, sleepless nights and self loathing isn't worth it!

My gambling is totally out of control now and I need to stop and take control.

im on Gamstop but have managed to find loads of sites not on it and constantly close them and they re open and I’ve spent hundreds/thousands again 

@tinaaa 

Hi tinaa, how are you? I'm relatively new to the site, around 2 weeks ago I realized that I had to stop, my problems like with online slots, hit 30k of debt, I've 3 kids and wondered how I'd feed them the next week, how would I buy the school stuff, the bills were mounting up, I broke down told my husband every-he had no idea, it was a brutally hard conversation but we've talked through so much since, before I told him I had put ggg on my phone, it's very strict - so much so that I had to request that they allow me to access ga Gamstop etc, anything gambling related is blocked, I'd strongly suggest setting a random pin so you've no access, set up the buddy alert and use the panic button if needed! Also exclude from any sites you use or bookies etc if that's the problem area. 

I hope you can work through this, be strict straight away!

Keep involved in sites like this, read family forums, see if from the other side, it's a real eye opener.

There's a challenge forum, try it... 

Please confide in someone, you can't do this alone.

Hi everyone hope you're all staying strong I'm now 3wks in to no gambling i can't believe it and were another week into the challenge I'm so glad i joined this forum it has helped me so much with my journey thank you to everyone take care all