3rd time quitting. depressed.

Hi Daniel

Welcome to the forum and well done for posting. You will find a lot of support here and a community of people who understand your struggle with gambling please keep reading and posting on the forum.

You have already taken steps to restrict your access to finances and are planning to resume your GA meetings which are very positive steps and show you are very motivated to overcome your gambling issues.

I would encourage you to call our helpline and talk things through with a GamCare adviser on 0808 8020 133 or on our netline. The advisers can provide emotional support and helpful information as well as facilitate a referral to free one to one counselling appointments if you’d like to access that service. Counselling is a safe and confidential space for you to discuss the impacts of the gambling and to explore why it is you are doing it.

Best wishes

Rachel.

Your story is exactly same as me mate, 25 good job great gf, wanting to move out next year also but in alot of debt, and its all a secret, currently see my only way out of it all is by hitting one big win....but as we know theres only one way it ends, even if we were to hit the big win, it would be like someone else controlling us and it would get gambled back into the bookies, if your relatively debt free with only a few hundred quid owed or whatever i really would say just give it up, treat your girlfriend to something the next time you feel the need to bet, i hope by the time im 26 i am only a few hundred in debt, thats wishful thinking though. good luck

Don't blame yourselves and more importantly always remember it can be a lot worse! Read other member's stories on this board and some day you might figure out what rock bottom really is and feels like.

Now ask yourself do you prefer rock bottom? Losing your job, business, house, family, gf/bf , your integrity, your health and everything else or do you just want that one big win?

I've had lots of big wins, amounts such as $35k, $20k, many $10k+'s and lots of jackpots I remember them briefly as this is my past, but they've all been over the $5k mark, and one 'wooping', more like depressing I would say, $$22k jackpot. Are these big enough 'wins'?

Now the question is are they wins or losses ? I've lost a lot more than what I've mentioned above. Do I have money? No. I'm broke. Why? Because gambling has also stolen my motivation. All those 'wins'' are just a fraction of what I've lost money wise. Where is the money? Gone into the casino owner's pockets. It will never change, the rules of the game never change, no win will ever be good enough for us, in fact the bigger the win the bigger the loss.

If you are tired of starting over, never give up friends.. never give up on giving up gambling! We can always dust ourselves of and continue a normal life.

I know it is not easy, I've been in despair for 3 odd years, but I am coming clean. You can too, don't allow yourself to go as far as some of us have. It is hell, feels like you are not alive. I am only 30 but I can honestly say I have not lived a normal life since I was 16 and started working and had my own money, gambled since I was 12. Why waste more of your life? Why not live like everyone else? You should ask yourselves all these questions. I am talking here hundreds of thousands lost, money that I might not be able to earn in a long time. but my health and other important things in life will never be recouped, oh yes and the time wasted! Who will give you back your wasted time? A jackpot? No again it will waste even more of your time.

My friends, your probably heard of many dramatic stories all over he places you live in. I have heard and seen them here. Gambling can kill, this is what the casinos, betting shops and all sorts of gambling places should be forced to warn people about.

I was happy one day passing by one of these disgusting places when I saw a big notice on an lcd screen, Gamble responsible, your life is more important. Now see, its not about the money its about your life.

Best,

freedom