61 days gamble free today. Feeling a lot better and like a new person already. First started gambling February 2013 and since then roulette machines and online roulette got me hooked and lost me over 15,000 maybe more in the past 4 years or so. I'm only 22 years old and luckily no debts, and finally starting to save money and enjoy my life. I had been suffering severe depression and anxiety thinking about ending my life it got that bad, knocked my confidence into what I'd become and completely ruled my life. One day I had enough. Now around 9 weeks gamble free (61 days). It can be done, and I wouldn't ever look back now. Onwards and upwards anyone struggling with this problem all you have to do is not gamble it's that easy and all your problems go away. Obviously still crosses my mind to gamble but for what? Losing hard earned money in a job I hate anyway, depression and misery caused from a money grabbing machine in the bookies that's ruled my life for years.
I'm so glad I'm finally on the right track and it's like I'm seeing life from a whole new perspective it's crazy. It's time to start living life properley now.
Thanks for reading people!
Well done from j heaven.
You are so blessed to not have been left with debts.
How are you finding the highs. Why did you get hooked?
How come no debts?
Thanks for taking time to read my post. I got hooked after starting gambling when I just turned 18, always roulette nothing else has ever interested me. Every single time I was winning and I mean every time for the first few months huge wins online and in the bookies and I remember thinking why doesn't everyone just do this? At 18 year old I didn't realise and I was just a kid. It gripped me in and has ruined my life tbh, and because I don't have access to credit only a £400 credit card and that's it. However I've worked constantly for 4years, and wasted easy more than 2/3 of my money on gambling that I've earned. It changes you as a person and I thought to my self one day I'm not this person at all and one day I had enough. Now stopped for 61 days and I feel I'm the person I once was. You have to really want to quit, and honestly it's the best thing I ever did. I wish I never even started, but I did and the only thing I can do now is move forward. It's achievable if you really want to stop you just really really have to want to
How's the no gambling going j heaven? Are you finding this site useful? I've just recently started to use this again and finding it really beneficial to open up and talk about my problem as well as seeing other people's posts.
Well done Shaun x
Hi Shaun
Thanks for asking not great a bit of a roundabout day. How many times do you go around it.
Second hand life my great quote here.
Always trying to fix others a few honest people that deserve the support but then there the worms that will lie and they have a illness that what I hear
When does a addict get tired?
I feel I speak from a family survivor and pushed in debt from a addict and now trying to gamble to get through the mental anguish of debt.your borrowed to the hilt.
My body and mind feels tired and all I get is a gambler don't change always be a addict do I believe this. Well done 62 days
I hear people tell me
They are so
Charming lovely to be around
when they get their deck in order your the joke and not needed.
They realise there debt and concentrate in what they lost not on what action they can take..
Sick and you feel they can't break this I understand I make excuses. Is there so great wakeup call
When will their next addiction victim fall into their arms.
So know I still picking myself up and trying to save My self from bankruptcy.
Hey you give and give and we take and take until a car hits you today . I punched My self in the face because they just don't wake up..
I'm crying as I write this.trauma and abuse from their family .Ooh you must be strong your told
You supported them they leave other to pick up the pieces. Will you wake up from that dead moment...no
you still limp to that betting office.
Because debt control us and gambling the big life.
Food money I wasn't even left with.
Then he dines in some fancy restaurant.
Tomorrow a New day i met a police officer and he had done some good charity work helping peopke that lost everything. He offered me a support to find a hostel after losing my home with my partner.
You see the disaster other countries and I won't become that victim to abuse or gambling or hostel debts benefits
I will work hard and this illness like you I won't be a victim.shaun what are you doing in self esteem things and emotions big research if you can get in touch with your emotions did we lose something and trying to find it through this awful game of life of control of your inner self.
Thank you Heaven.
Yes site useful thankyou Shaun
Diary day 3
Today a sense of what is real in ones life how can I make it better now how do I start again.
I looked at my sad face in the mirror and thought this has destroyed you.
If I could be with him and bring some normality back to my self my life then I could work on me that would be the foundation to something.but now just.me left to put things in place.
You have no friends your family feel so frustrated with you.
My dad health I feel to blame.
So I just pray for peace and guidance today
Very lonely and lost alot.
But I have the tools and skills I done it before to build a new life.
Starting today.
Heaven
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