Hi guys,
So not been on here for a while thought maybe I'd finally found light at the end of the tunnel but it appears not. So to cut it short I have always struggled with a gambling problem. Every pay day I would spend my wages on online slots. So back in August I gave my notice in at work as I wasn't happy in the job anymore. I stopped gambling as I didn't have hardly any money to live on and even if I wanted to gamble I wouldn't be able to as my dad drawed all my cash out. Anyway I recently got a new job and it is an amazing job litrelly the pay is great and I love the job it's self. You all know where I'm going with this, so first pay day yesterday and I cleared £1350 now I have £150 left because yup you guessed it I gambled it away I feel sick with myself I was meant to be taking my boyfriend away and now I can't afford to I don't know what I'm going to say.. I also found a site that lets you deposit by phone bill and let's just say it's not going to be pretty when I get it. I'm so angry with myself for falling back into this trap I think I'd be better dead but know that would be selfish of me. Thought writing about it and getting some feedback would help.. Please help guys X
I'm not going to start lecturing as I have absolutely no right to but why can't you have your dad look after your wages? OK so its not ideal but far better than the alternative of such pain and misery. You have to do whatever it takes.
In all honesty I thought I was over it I honestly believed I could do It I planned all the nice things I can buy in my head. I didn't think it would be a issue. Not only that I spend a lot of time at my partners so wouldn't be realistic for him to have my wages unfortunately my partner is offshore now and I guess the temptation was too much. But definitely made me think I should get wages paid into dads account now..
I think you need a hobbies that takes up a lot of time, the worst thing is to have too much time ALONE, that's where the boredom and temptation starts to take hold. I know there are loads of gambling sites online, but one day when your feeling strong, you need to self exclude from as many as possible, I have done this and although the temptation starts, there is nothing for you to gamble on, and after a while, the feeling to gamble eases. Even contact your phone provider and ask to be blocked from using your phone bill to pay for things. You need EVERY money spending temptation at arms length so you can't get to it. Please stay strong.
Thanks so much I agree a hobby would be good, when I'm at work I'm pre occupied so never have the temptation and I would never gamble if somebody else was in my presence as I wouldn't want to try explain my situation it's almost like having a affair and trying to keep the other person a secret. I'm thinking about just getting rid of my phone as it is the only way I can gamble. I don't have a laptop or tablet and I wouldn't go in bookies as wouldn't want to be seen. Need to kick this habit once and for all X
Finished with my boyfriend last night as seems easier then telling him the truth.. Feel like the worse person alive right now
Sorry to hear this lostsoul. I hope you have some friends and family round you at this time. Maybe also think about starting a thread in the Diaries section? Forum users often encourage each other there.
Can't you expain to your boyfriend, does he know you gamble? He might be able to help you, give him a chance he might be sitting there wondering what he does wrong
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