Guys I wanted to ask something. I can not gamble for 1-2 weeks, 2-4 months it depends I can take it day by day. But when I have money I will go and play. I can have a break from gambling. sometimes I can not gamble up to 6 months that was my longest without gambling. The thing is when I do that I do not see it as a step forward or progress  because after a while or a break I will back. I feel proud and more relaxed when I dont gamble or stop for a certain time but i do not feel Like I made progress regardless that I stopped for a while because whether it s 1month,3months 6months i go back. so what I really feel is i make progress just to build myself up to go play big after a while. does anyone understand what Im trying to say? I go to counseling but at the end of the day I do not feel like its helping. My councilor is not in my shoes, or do I feel they understand. but they did ask me a key question that was do I want to stop gambling now, and I said yes but I dont think I am quite ready to give it up completely because its been a part of my life for over 11 years so its hard to stop it completely. When I do not have money I do not gamble I go with my friends casino to chill and watch others and them play and it doesnt give me the urge to gamble but when I have money I want to gamble
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Hello @pablo12345
Thanks for posting your problem here on the forum. It does sound like you are stuck in a cycle of gamble, have a few months break, then relapse, and it's distressing you that you have not been able to sustain your progress longer term. It does sound like you've made a breakthrough in that you've realised that you are ambivalent about stopping, and you've recognised that whenever you do have access to money that's when you're triggered. You're not alone in those experiences. Recovering gamblers often find that when finances start to improve and they have access to money again, that this is a trigger point. I'm sure others on the forum will be able to relate. There may also be practical steps you can put in place to protect you from these lapses. You mention that you're having treatment at the moment. If you want to talk some more in between sessions you're welcome to contact us on 0808 8020 133 or webchat. We also have a relapse prevention group for people who have been through our treatment programme.
Keep posting,
Best wishes
Deirdre
Forum Admin
Thank you very much
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I don't Know Pablo,
 do I want to stop gambling now, and I said yes but I dont think I am quite ready to give it up completely because its been a part of my life for over 11 years so its hard to stop it completely. When I do not have money I do not gamble I go with my friends casino to chill and watch others and them play and it doesnt give me the urge to gamble but when I have money I want to gamble
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