How much have you lost gambling?

Probably arond £60000-£70000 in four years. Relationships with friends and girlfriends. Trust of my family, hurt the people closest to me. Lost trust of my employers, bosses, colleagues. And most importantly lost myself and who I am as a person.

Everyone has to deal with the aftermath and the reality in a way they feel helps recovery.

I understand those who dont want a list of monetary amounts and wont think of it strongly in that way. I equally feel when strong enough its ok to realise some sort of figure as a focus on what gambling does.

I lost any healthy balance of the mind and I had already lost all sense of a purpose in life. With a mixture of depression and gambling they were feeding off each other and that is an important point with an escape gambler.

I had lost myself which is one of the hardest things to come to terms with along with the fact that I had given up on or didnt know how to lead a full life due to my inner turmoil

I lost the trust of my family but have to think this was a necessary trade off to tackle a deadly addiction. They trust me to be honest with them now about an addiction they understand more.. It was never really me thinking I would get one over on them with an evil laugh. I was ill with an addiction

At some point we have to think its only money. I used my own thought processes to put it behind me because the alternative was making myself ill over it. Im still here and thats the way Ive got to think about it

Best wishes to everyone on the forum

£73,000

I don't know how much I have lost and that is intentional. If I worked it out, it would play on my mind so I tell myself that I haven't lost anything and pretend I never had a gambling problem in the first place. That way I can move on with my life.

Throughout this compulsive gambling of over a decade I played games with myself , numbers games, games that wrecked my common sense around money but I needed to rationalise in order to stay in the zone of addiction. Chasing losses in the moment and then just in general because every time I played , in the back of my mind no amount of winning was enough because I felt that I really did not win unless I got it alllllllll back ie. every cent from day one of being involved with gambling. Then , I 've heard it said again and again that most cg's are unable to stop even if they get it alllllll back with some ungodly huge win. I don't know because I never had that kind of win. I always saw the glass as half empty as gambling drained my savings and all extra money past living expenses. In my head I roughly figured out approx. how much I put into slots , total. I know that it must be near $100,000 and if you saw how I live and what I have to my name you'd think I was not working and was getting government assistance. I'm getting a grip. I have a savings that seemed like crumbs but I'm now seeing the amount as it stands in the moment and not through the lens of losses. I struggle to stay with this perspective. I want to let go and accept where I am in the moment. Any amount of money to my name is significant and I can just go on from here. It taking me lots of self care, lots of humility, lots of mistakes in other areas of life ... trial and error because I'm building myself again and reaching out. I'm interacting and opening up more instead of isolating in deep despair. As other have said, the losses go way beyond the cash assets! There are blessings to start counting. Thank God. tara2

EUR 9k total during 10+ yrs of on/off gambling. Ridiculous amount of money

Total of £18250 over 3.5 year of gambling.

14k in debt with loan companies . Having to pay over £300 a month back for the next 5 years. Lost about 13k of that 3 months . 8k of it was in December alone. Finally came clean to my wife today . Feels great to have it off me chest but put my relationship and life at risk. It's not worth it, but addiction takes over and it's impossible to control, said I was going to go gamble free in 2018 but I relapsed a few days ago. Only £50 but it's not good enough. I need to fix my mindset , fix my life and my marriage

Would say I've lost about 20k. And about 2k paying off interest on payday loans / credit cards. Have very little debt at the minute however, and feel sorry for the ones who have racked up massive debts due to gambling as I'm sure deep down there's plenty of people here with hearts of gold.

During the 35 years I gambled, I lost my life to it. I was saturated with gambling, it oozed out of every pore in my body.

I dont think I'll ever seriousley try to add up how much ive lost financially.

I'm 51 now, live very much hand to mouth, no savings to speak of. I have nearly £200K of debt. I'm not a rich person, just a normal working class bloke. So you could say I've lost 35 years worth of income + the debt + all the money from crimes which seen me go to jail 5 times.

I don't gamble now. My debt isn't increasing and over half that amount is money I owe my parents which will never be paid.

I'm not squeaky clean, (hence my tax), but I do live an honest life. I dont look back at gambling and remember the big wins, there wasn't too many of them. When I look back I look at how sick it all was. One day in 2005 I lost the equevilent of a years salary in 5 days. Sick, is putting it mildly.

In answer to your question, "how much have you lost gambling?"

I think my answer will be the same as a lot of CG's......"too bloody much"!

This thread helps me to feel not so alone . Regaurdless of the amount, it's all subjective. Still my losses are grand in relationship to how I live and what I have to my name and what I am bringing in at this point with my soon to be state regulated employment which I have to either put money and time into or find a new occupation. God , yes, once again... near $100 thousand I would say. It's so hard to really know. tara2

Hundreds of thousands. Much of what should have been money spent on my family's needs and future.
It's sickening to think about what I have done.

Just got a bill to get the car repaired, strange thing that this feels like some sort of gambling loss too that I would have tried to win back in earlier days. What I'm trying to say is that what I've lost to gambling is also a normal relationship to money, does it get better over time? I've always been tight with money apart from gambling, the whole thing still feels very dreadful

Hello All,

I am new to this Thread and now a days my life is becoming hell with the thoughts what i have done in last 2 months. In last 2 months I lost 150 k. All my credits cards and saving is gone. I ma totally f****d up, there were days when I was up in the begininig , and I think thats the only temtattion got me in and ruined my life today. My family dont know, my mom just do a cash job and earn little money. When she will come to know, she will break inside and out. I dont have courage to talk to her.

i was a simple guy and living a happy life untill I made my account on Betway. I wont **** in 2 days just playing on roullet. After the i got so indulge in it and it was hard for me to come out . Even I was winning my looses but at the end i was giving them back everthing. and in the end I have nothing left. I am so depressed that how can I pay those debts. why iImade this f*ing mistake. I was a happy guy. I ma trying to get rid of those guilty thoughts , but It keep coming back.

150 k was a huge money , i could have bought ahome and many other things with it. We all gamblers are so greedy, when we win something then we think we are the expert and will beat the casino. But we forget that if that was the case then they would have been bankrupt not us. Gamblers can not control themseleve if they loose few bets, that psycholigical effect we can not control over it. So in the end we loose everything and cry. When we play then we dont go to any blogs and forums to read about gambling. We come here when we reach at the rock bottom.

I know and i beleive everyone here know themselves how they are feeling about it. we ruin out happy living life for this gambling. I used to have a glow on my face , happiness and smile always. Now i am so depressed and unhappy guy, who does not want to talk anybody. Gambling f****d up my life. I was thinking of marriage , and i dont have money now in my account, My mom is happy that I will uy home and will get married and she will paly with my kids. But all those things have been ruined. Hey My Lord please help each and every gambler and give them strength finacially, emotinally to handle down the stuff.

Good luck everyone.

​I think its best to put the figure behind us, as joy divider rightly said the thought of reminding yourself how much you've lost can make u feel ill so its sometimes best to put the figure behind us and focus on other more important aspects of life like health and wellbeing. The money will get paid its just a matter of time. We must enjoy that time as that's what lifes all about. Adam