I think this is my end point, it has to be.

It is mind mastery from this point. Tony Robins said that change will come when you are in such a state that you can't do anything else but change. He also says addiction is a state. Change your state and that should start to change your life. See if you can or you can't you will be right in both. You have to decide. Where to go from here.  When you have taken that decision you will start to plan and when you plan you do and when you do you get somewhere.  And from this point what else can you do? There are no other good choices. You have an obligation to yourself and to your loved ones to stick around and learn from this mess. Decide to learn and it will happen.

There are 100s of options online. This is one of them where you will find like minded souls who you can share your thoughts and ideas with.If you can find yourself a cbt therapist I would recommend it. They have a way of teaching you to structure your thoughts better and that is better than feeling that you are eternally damned and only god will save you. You need to save yourself and we have about 50% more strength than we think that we do. So it is time to find that strength now. Make a plan and start to learn about what is happening to you. You will find strength in that knowledge.

I wish you well!

/C

Posted by: @c43h

It is mind mastery from this point. Tony Robins said that change will come when you are in such a state that you can't do anything else but change. He also says addiction is a state. Change your state and that should start to change your life. See if you can or you can't you will be right in both. You have to decide. Where to go from here.  When you have taken that decision you will start to plan and when you plan you do and when you do you get somewhere.  And from this point what else can you do? There are no other good choices. You have an obligation to yourself and to your loved ones to stick around and learn from this mess. Decide to learn and it will happen.

There are 100s of options online. This is one of them where you will find like minded souls who you can share your thoughts and ideas with.If you can find yourself a cbt therapist I would recommend it. They have a way of teaching you to structure your thoughts better and that is better than feeling that you are eternally damned and only god will save you. You need to save yourself and we have about 50% more strength than we think that we do. So it is time to find that strength now. Make a plan and start to learn about what is happening to you. You will find strength in that knowledge.

I wish you well!

/C

 

Great solid advice here. But yes; to follow on, it’s all on you to make this change. I found myself, like you at 31, like you it went on for 13 years or so, stuck in a trap. Awaiting the next bet, lining it up, and inevitably CHASING and losing it all. Every. Single. Time.

I found myself to try again and again to stop, but failed every time. The difference this time is I have had counselling which GamCare put me forward for. Give them a call and see the options available. Secondly; I have no debit card. For the first time in my life I actually cut my debit card up. I only have access to Apple Pay and I have gambling transaction block in place so any gambling transactions anywhere become blocked. Thirdly; I have turned to God and pray every morning in appreciation and to thank how my mindset has changed since I last gambled. 

These are my experiences, take away any physical means to gamble, get some counselling either online or through GamCare, I do wish you all the best.

take care