im 18, and i am down bad

Dear @ra823iv9ts,

Thank you for posting on the forum, I can hear how hard this is for you right now and hope you find support and understanding from others in this community.

Many people can relate to using gambling as a way to escape from difficult and painful emotions but with the right support you can get through this.

I have emailed you with some details of support services available in the US and wish you all the best in your recovery.

Do keep posting and reaching out, gambling can affect anyone and it takes strength and courage to talk about it. You are not alone.

Take care

Rachel

Forum Admin

Posted by: @ra823iv9ts

hi.

i am a 18 yr old boy from the US and in the past 5 months or so I have lost a lot of bitcoin in gambling alone. I have been struggling with depression and some other stuff these past few months and have have been drinking a lot and smoking a lot to ease the pain of things. Last night I lost more money and i wanted to die. i am currently employed which i mostly use to pass time during the day as i work 8 hours.  I smoked and drank so much which made me feel like even worse about myself. I am motivated to get over this stupid addiction, and i will work hard to get my money back, and one day ill laugh at all this. but for now it hurts so god d**n bad. i am going to college in like 2 months as a freshman. 

anyways, i hope you all goodluck with getting over this, and i wish you all success in life <3

Hi Jack

As bad as you feel until you begin to take some ownership unfortunately nothing will change. All the help in the world wont help anyone that doesn't want to help them selves. Bet on your self!

Hi

Thank you for your sharing it reduces our fears and helps us get more honest with our self.

By you getting in to a recovery program at 18 years of age will save you from a lot of pains and suffering much earlier in your life.

For me being in the recovery program helped me understand that for me Gambling is a very unhealthy self destructive habit.

At times I was in so much pain and suffering I to wanted to die. 

When I was a  teenager I even tried to take my own life.

I woke up the next morning and felt that I was even more of a failure.

Now today I unstand that  I was very much emotionally vulnerable.

Me being emotionally vulnerable did not mean I was weak, in truth the exact opposite I had survived so much suffering in my life.

Even though I Had been a victim in so many ways I Made a conscious decision to heal my pains and have a voice from peace where I could speak up for my self in so many ways.

For me being in the recovery program I would understand that I was unable to heal my pains. 

That I was unable to face and reduce my fears.

That I was able to understand that my high expectations of people life and situations I was in effect cuasing my self lots of pains. 

I am so pleased that you are motivated towards exhcanging unhealthy habits in to healthy habits.

For me being in the recovery program the people in it were very much motivated in to fulfilling their needs,  fulfilling their wants and fulfilling their new found goals. 

For me they were not stupid addictions or obsessions, they were unhealthy addictions and unhealthy obsessions.

For me the unhealthy addictions or obsessions reduced how much time I spent getting things done.

Sadly my fears restricted me from being healthy and having healthy self intimacy adn honesty,

I completed surrendered to the fact my money I losta dn wasted were gone completely. 

Once you are able to asbtain from my very unhealthy addictions or obsessions I would be able to laugh at my self. 

In time I would heal my hurt inner child.

Sadly healing my hurt inner child could only happen once I gave up very unhealthy addictions or obsessions.

If you can stick with attending meetings and start going to college you will be abale to retain and recall your learning in a much easier healthier way.

By going to recovery meetings and sticking with it has nothing to do about good luck.

Going to the to recovery meetings you are investing in your well being and improvong your odds in a healthy recovery.

Please stick with being honest and attending healthy meetings.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham