Hi All,
I have decided to join Gamcare to help set-up a bit of community and share thoughts of my recovery. My gambling over the past year has been completely reduced with only a couple of slip-ups on roulette and I have managed to clear any of my oustanding debts and have saved a fair amount with attending GA and not going into the betting shop.
My only problem recently is that I have played a couple of fruit machines which resets the good work back to zero. I find when I miss a couple of GA sessions some bad thoughts linger and I will go for drinks with friends and have a flutter on them. To make matters worse my Partner has now said we are now over due to my lying about going out for drinks, which I totally agree is completely out of order. My last transgression was before we went away on Holiday I was owed £53 on a fruit machine which didn't pay out. I had arranged for a person I knew to collect the money, but the only problem is I had to meet them when I came back on Holiday. When I met them I had a couple of drinks and I lied to my partner I was home. My partner had suspicions and walked around the area and saw me outside the pub and has now said its the final straw. Yet again gambling seems to be the root problem but recently it is also drinking which has let myself down.
They have blocked me on all social media, but said potentially we can be friends in the future. To compounds things because of the previous lies, they believe I may have been cheating on them and doing other things which I genuinely haven't been. So I have decided to stop drink all together now, which I believe did increase my chances of playing on fruit machines. Think it is all to late in the day to win my partner back, they went space, but then all I can think of us then and is very difficult not to contact them. Yet again drinking and gambling has ruined a brilliant thing for me. I had managed nearly 6 weeks non-drinking back in April, but foolishly reintroduced it and problems re-occured. He was the best thing that had happend to me and loved him dearly.
I have never been more ertain this is the turning point for me now and I will never turn to gambling and drinking ever again.
It's tough to hold that positive mentality. Really hoping things go well for you, take care
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