Please just take 5 minutes for you today

Hi all,

this is my first post. I’ve read many posts in the forum and replied to a couple but never written one myself.

ive been struggling after my recent relapse which has left me £**k in debt and feeling ashamed, guilty, worthless and helpless.

i have good days and bad. But today im feeling good and positive about making changes in my life.

its been so dark, wet and horrible for so long but today the sun is out for the first time in a very long time. Its warm and feels like spring.

ive left my desk, made a brew and am soaking in the warmth of the sun.

theres the sound of grass being cut, people laughing, birds singing.

all sounds pretty fluffy I know but it feels like hope and New opportunity.

If you have the opportunity to do so today just spend 5 mins in the sun and it reminds of how simple and pleasant life can be without gambling!

I shouldn’t be doing, I should be working but the most important person is you! You get yourself in a good place, you are there for your family and others!

This is the first time I’ve blocked out the shame, guilt and worry of how much money I owe and it’s reminded me how good life can be in the future when I beat this cycle 

hoping this brings a bit of positivity to someone’s day 😊