relapse after relapse - I can't do this anymore

You have made a brave step coming here for starters. I dont know what youve done ot help you stop in the past, or what triggers your relapses but it counds to me like you need some support in working out what plan you need to move past your current blockage. Ring the helpline, get some support and formulate some strategies to deal with it.

You mention your daughter, and obviously your self pity at the moment is telling you your not worthy. I think the real you beneath the gambler knows you definitely do deserve her and all the joy she brings. Give recovery your all and reap the rewards. Take care of yourself and things will improve.

Hi Siobhan welcome to recovery 🙂

As you have discovered, just stopping gambling isn't enough...You need to figure out what your triggers are & work out different ways to manage them when they arise! I would also suggest a phonecall to Gamcare, maybe try & arrange some counselling, look to see where your local GA meetings are & get your self exclusions in place with blocking software to support them if you gamble online! This will break your gambling (Time-Money-Location, remove one & you cannot gamble) triangle which you may find takes a weight off of your shoulders! Then come clean & ask for help before this all comes out anyway!

As my good friend Ade2 pointed out, we're not bad people, we just took a wrong turn...Your daughter deserves you just as much as you deserve her, we all need our Mums!

You can beat this - ODAAT

hi siobhan

heart felt story as i spent a massive chunk of my salary this month and be scrimping and saving all month and go a baby under 1 year too look after so know how long u prob feeling , ur probably feeling rock bottom as my rent and bills come out on pay day my only saving grace as the rest went to the greedy operators of these sites , please talk to one of us as i feel concerned for u as prospect of no home no car becaise of this teriible addiction is enough to break someone

please check in take care

Hi all thanks so much for your messages. I'm still trying to find a way to tell my partner. This nearly broke us last time and with other troubles recently it's not going to go well. I don't know who to talk to about it first. I'm scared that our rent is due tomorrow and I've already been late a few times with it 🙁 it's breaking my heart as it's christmas next week as well, the same time it all came out in the first place 🙁

Hi Siobhan

Sorry to hear about this, it's so horrible to hear about other people in the same situation. Tell your partner, it might be a step towards help, tell him you are seeking help, most of all the truth. It's a addiction, I hope for the best for you. Im trying my hardest to stop. There is so much help out there for you.

Please do tell your partner, but it might be worth calling ga and speaking to a counsellor first to help you work out how to tell your partner. You might be able to begin figuring out what triggers you to relapse into compulsive gambling behaviours, then at least you will have some sort of explanation as to why to give your partner. Then you can work together from there.

The financial side you can work on over time. It must be really tough, especially at this time of year - but money is just money. More can always be earned and can debts always paid eventually.

I wish you all the best. Please let us know how you're getting on.

This early phase after a relapse is always the worst and the hardest, but you're not the only one to do this and you're defiantely not alone. Just find that inner strength to pull through. I know you can xxx

This is my first attempt of quiting and I was doing well for 8 days and went online when I was drunk and lost my wages agate. Just a joke. Iv been were you are plenty of times and need to stop now.

Haven't gambled for 3 days now and feel better. Just got a keep it up. I hope everything was sorted with ya rent.

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