Hi, I’m today 28 years old and gambling been controlling my life for 8 years.
Been gambling and gaming loosing x amounts of money every month for past 8 years but this last year was most destructive form me ,got multiple loans and credit cards with high interest,still manage to not to miss payments but every month losing more and more that might me not the case anymore,I am in so much pain from that have so much hate for my self , feeling completely lost and week ,today on my birthday spend on my knees in tears couse of my actions.i been delaying getting help day after day and situation got worse and worse.
I have people I love which ones are not affected by my gambling but I feel like a 1 year or so and that will be the case ,and that it’s my biggest fear .
i want to change, i want to get stronger but i always slip in to being lazy and trying to get money easy way and in the end just getting my self hurt and this cycle been going on for 8 years ,I can’t live like this anymore I beg for help and I wish for everyone else who’s struggling with the same situation just get that strength we need to to put the end of it to this madness
Hi Deivid
Welcome to the Gamcare forum and thank you for sharing your post with the community.
I am really sorry to learn of your struggles with gambling. You have come to the right place for support and I commend you for speaking out with such courage.
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Hi Deivid,
First of all, you should be proud of yourself for managing to keep up with necessary payments. Also it’s great that you can recognise the spiral and that you want help. I’m the family member of someone who gambles. She’s always struggled with it but I always thought there were red lines…unfortunately the spiral and addiction has no red lines. I recently found out that she’s in debt from her student loan which she gambled 2 years ago. I can’t believe she’s been masking this and I live with her.
2 days ago we found out she gambled my mams pension lump sum. We are broken. So is she. She’s the kindest person. But the gambling has taken control and literally has no boundaries. I keep reading that “they have to reach rock bottom before they can heal”. I thought she’d hit rock bottom years ago when I got her payday loans sorted so we got some of the debt wiped out and paid minimal payments until they were paid off (we also argued a case against the pay day loan companies to say that she was vulnerable and they had not treated her fairly as a customer by lending her more money without assessing her disposable income and mental health).
Anyway, best of luck to you. Don’t think you’re on your own and get help immediately. Also, please try and tell one of your loved ones. They have to know. If my sister would have died by suicide earlier this year as she tells me she almost did, then I would have found out about this debt later and none of us would have gotten the chance to face it together.
its the worse thing. We’re going through it. You seem to have hindsight on your side, please use it. 💕🙏🏿
Hi
Today by working my recovery I understand that gambling was a very unhealthy addiction.
I would work for a month and then give my hard earned money away to complee strangers while I and my family went with out.
I did not do it once but time and time again.
By working in the recovery program I handed over my money to my wife.
Money was just the fuel for my addiction.
By me working hard on my recovery I would stop losing my money.
By me working hard on my recovery I would stop lying to my self and others.
By me working hard on my recovery I would stop living in fear.
By me working hard on my recovery I would stop living in guilt shame and regret.
By me working hard on my recovery I would stop wasting my time and energy and fufill my needs my wants and my goals.
When I walked in to the recovery program I use to think that I was a bad person.
Now today I understand that I was a very vulnerable person.
Now today I understand that I am becoming a much healthier productive person today.
Just for today I put time adn effort in my eing a much healthier person.
Healing Love and peace to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
@mg1lkahydi thank you for sharing your story and kind words,this addiction is the worst think a silent killer which tells you to keep it on your own and not speak to anyone,but need to get exposed and be dealt with it the hard way couse if you get away easy it will continue
@q86r2ugj5p I hope I can gather the same strength and mindset you have to get things done and start living a normal life
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