Ended my self exclusion last month and I have gambled everyday since I lose a lot more than I’ll ever win I know that but I can’t stop. It’s the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing I think about at night. Some how I think it is worse than it was before. I know I should start a new self exclusion because it helped before I didn’t gamble for months even though I really wanted to but the thought of not being able to gamble makes me anxious like I’m still hoping I can win it all back so like how. I wish I could be normal and just be able to gamble occasionally and have fun with it. I think I’ve finally understood that I won’t ever be able to control myself. I can’t tell my family I borrow money from them for bills but really it’s to cover my overdraft I’ve spent gambling it all away. I feel like a terrible person and am honestly disgusted at myself
Dear @Sprks1234,
Thankyou for sharing your story with the forum today.
I can appreciate how difficult this must be for you if you have recently removed your self exclusions and started gambling again.
It may be worth giving us a call if you haven't already to see if we can offer you any support for what you are going through. Our number is 0808 8020 133 if you wanted to reach out to us. We are also available through live chat, WhatsApp and Facebook messenger if these are more accessible for you.
Kind Regards
Forum Admin
George
I cannot imagine what you are going through. To give myself the best chance possible I self excluded for the maximum of 5 years and I have also paid for Gamban for the next year.
You've done it before you can do it again.
Stay Strong my friend
There is no point in hating yourself. The crazy thing is that you would probably love yourself more when you don't gamble.
It's a never ending battle. But everyday you don't gamble, you win.
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