Hi all hope you dont mind me sharing. I am in recovery for alcohol and coming up to one year sober. However last summer i began online slots in the beginning i would win and withdraw straight away i was losing a lot of money by the end so joined gamstop this helped and i didnt even try to sign up for others. Low and behold about 2 months ago i wander past a well known high street arcade i went in and ended up winning a gold pot on a very well known game that was it then for me. since that win im in there every day rain or shine also go to other arcades in same vicinity theres 3 within 2 minutes of eachother. Ill win in one get greedy go to another smash that in then go to another and lose it all every single time. Today was last straw i bought xmas things for my daughters so justified a trip to arcade i won again a gold pot this morning and by 1pm it was gone along with the rest of my money in my purse. I know have no money for another 3 weeks. Im starting to believe i like losing and leaving with nothing. why cant i just walk away once im on a slot i go into a deep deep trance were every ounce of logic dissapears.every time every day i end up crying and being really snappy and wanting to go straight to bed. Got to be more to life than this rubbish. Wish i never set foot in these places it feels worse than the online problem as its right on my doorstep and ive won before thats the pull even though i dont win cos i gamble it back its such a mind f.... . Feel really seedy and sneaky as well all i think about is slots day in day out like my mind has been overtaken . I may as well be drinking again as its the exact same feelings. Dont know what to do with myself so ive come on here to share thanks all x
Hi Jessica. I don't know if you follow 12 steps for your aa recovery, but it's basically the same for gambling. You're beaten, you won't win and you have to be honest. One day at a time, just don't have the next bet, spin, flutter whatever. Gambling and alcohol are all types of addiction. You have to find out why you want to escape. Try to occupy yourself with other pastimes. Don't carry money or cards. Tell someone, call the helpline, find a meeting. It stops when you want it to.
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