After letting my last recovery diary fall by the wayside somewhat, I decided I'd start again with my next big milestone.
Today is day 100. It seems surreal saying it, given where I was just over 3 months ago but here it is. 100 days since I decided to kick this horrible habit. 100 days since I decided enough was enough. 100 days since the beginning of the rest of my life.
The journey so far has had its downs, mainly at the beginning, but they have been dwarfed by the considerable highs. I've embraced every simple and menial thing in life because I know how bad things could be were I to still continue gambling.
My bank balance, my mental strength and my mood have all improved massively over this period on non gambling and, most importantly, my marriage, which I feared would be over as soon as I came clean, is continuing to get stronger with every passing gamble free day.
I'm at a point in my recovery where I have grown to despise gambling. Physically hate it and everything it does to people like 'us'. It's that hatred that is driving me along. Keeping me on the right path. I'm attending GA meetings every week and find myself in the chatroom most nights, and it's there where I have found the most support on this journey (outside of my home life). From the very first night I logged in, I was not judged for what I did, not looked down upon for what I have become and accepted. Speaking with like minded people every night, forming online friendships with people who understand what I've done and been through has been priceless. And I thank each and every one of those people who have been there and supported me over the last 100 days.
The fight goes on and I intend to keep on winning it. 💪🏾
Legend mate. Great to see you hit that 100 day milestone. You're input most nights in the chatroom is a huge help to myself and others and you should be proud of the fact you are beating this and helping others do the same.
Keep the hatred! It's what gets me through this too.
Congrats mate. A well deserved diary entry.
Good luck, keep doingÂ
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welldone....this is huge,.....
@g4pv3yauqm amazing work mate well done!
Make sure that you reward yourself for this. You need to recognise the great achievement that it is.
Please continue sharing your progress. Â
Huge congratulations Jay 👏👏👏👏. A reward indeed is a must - no matter how small, you make sure to treat yourself with something!
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
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