2010

Hi Jas

Dreaming of gambling is normal, has happened to me for years, sometimes I win, sometimes I lose.

One particularly bad dream a while back had been down on my knees pleading for mercy with creditors after a bad loss.

The fact that you continue to abstain during the awake hours is the main thing.

P.s. I feel Love

I have gambling dreams too...they are very vivid, but if i win in them, i always win a strange amount like £113.87 on the bandit!

Hmm...sounds like you are going through a tough patch cravings-wise. Sorry to hear that, but I know you are self aware and that gives you the best fighting chance of resisting.

You are poorly, frustrated and anxiously awaiting various decisions that will change the lives of your family members - no wonder the cravings are coming thick and fast!

Sending you positive thoughts, hope you get the news you wish for lovely lady

f x

Morning Jasmine I have had lots of dreams like that - its a nice feeling though when the dream is about a loss and waking up knowing yep its just a dream and aint real , as it has been many many times in the past. Thanks for the post on my diary - hope all is good your end. Best thoughts Blocked.

Hi Jas

Thanks for sympathy re emotional outbursts - when I shout at someone for no reason tomorrow I'll just tell them 'Jas says its ok' lol

Circled a few diaries tonight and added some input, hope I can add value from my years of experience despite being fairly new to the Forum.

Hope today was a good day for you.

P.s. Love Train

Just watched the footie...not really a fan but it was good...well, it was either that or embarrasing bodies..eerghh

I'm still not well and have to go back to the Doctors tomorrow. To be honest I feel really ill and have been crying loads today because it just will not clear up...fed up!

I just want to wake up and for this to be gone.....sorry this isnt gambling related but it just seems relevant.

Going to check a few diaries to see how everyone is doing....Nite x

It's really gloomy and dark outside today so I'm just having a sit down in front of my light box. Highly recommended.

I was feeling a bit sorry for myself last night and have decided to shake myself out of it. The more you moan the worse it seems to get... for today I will not mention how ill I am feeling. I feel good.....even if I don't. Let's see if it works.

Taken my daughter to the train station this morning...interview at Sheffield Uni today. I dropped her off and looked back at her in the mirror....she looked gorgeous and very glamorous too. Not sure if she was a little over dressed for her nursing interview but who am I to dictate...she was being herself so why should I upset the applecart...she will certainly be getting a few heads turning! Isn't it great to have no inhibitions.

I was reading something on blocked's diary about credit card gaming transactions. It just bought back a few memories. I ran up extortionate amounts of debt gambling using credit cards. Not only did they charge a gambling transaction fee they also charged extrotionate amounts of interest as it was classed as a cash transaction. Why did I do it?.....because it didn't seem like real money..I wasn't dipping into my savings....I was just tapping in a row of numbers and depositing...it was easy peasy. It started with small deposits and then it grew and grew. For anyone reading who is still gambling using your credit card...PLEASE STOP NOW....it's not your money. I wished there was some way of making it unlawful to gamble using a credit card.

See you soon...Jas x

Hi Jasmine dark and gloomy here also oh and with a huge stack of snow ... horrid. As for the gambling n credit cards. Its one processor/ bank who could loose the ability to process any visa or mc transactions. They were pushing through gaming transactions as if they were Not gaming which is in direct violation of visa/mc rules in regards to high risk transactions. This will affect many operators as it was one of the larger aquiring bank processing for high risk sectors such as gaming. This is going to affect alot of things but only for those that gamble. In the end its going to throw the light back onto online casinos espeically where very real and solid legislation is needed urgently. They are some links to this story as its devolopes but wont post them here as not sure about forum rules on this kind of thing etc. Hope all is well with you 🙂 Best thoughts Blocked.

Hi Jasmine,

Hope you are managing to have a good day. Do post when you find out how your sister is.

Take care,

f x

We are told the recession is over but it's not. P has been in a meeting since 9.30am with very important people, making very important decisions about very important things because they can and they are a bunch of t*****s. If I hadn't f***** up our money he wouldn't have to put up with all this s**t. I suppose we could sell up and live differently, although in 6 years all this will be different...we won't be trapped forever...........and time flies by..........it's all down to me now to make sure it's only 6 years.

Daughter has had her Uni interview...very tough so will keep fingers crossed.

Que sera sera....my mother used to sing this to me. Whatever will be will be.

No gambling for Jas xx

Hi Jas, thanks for post

your daughter lookin gorgeous eh? Chip off the old block?

Surprised to read that you were watching footie, didnt know you were a fan...

And wish you ( or anyone ) had managed to convince me not to use credit cards a long time ago, easy money, went through spell of just using credit card for gambling and keeping all other money separate. just kept paying minimum amount and had money going in and out of my 'betting' account but then of course eventually I hit 'bad patches' and they refuse to increase my limit and the minimum amount becomes high ( £400 a month at the mo on credit cards )

Dont be tempted to sell up - keep to 6 year plan

P.s. Love Hurts

(que sera sera) good on you jasmine for keeping us troops entertained....i can relate to credit card gambling,i used them for the exchanges betting and lost quite a few grand...in fact no time for credit cards whatsoever having paid a conservatory on one once..how stupid was that ? ive read about credit cards now and how certain ones can build up your credit rating,is this true/cant be ? anyways hope your bairn gets what shes looking for..best wishes and keep up the good work...

Hi Jas

dont be beating yourself up. important thing is you have now stopped and trying to make things better...all you need to do is remain gamble free...sounds sooo easy i know, but show us it can be done, and life will be good.

neil

Hi Jasmine

Just wanted to pop in and say hi, hope you and your family are ok, sorry i dont post as much nowadays but i do genuinely care and i do think about you and a few others on this forum.

Anyway no words of wisdom from me today, lol! take care, ands xx

Hi jasmine,

Thank you for the kind words on my diary,i do read yours,and many others too,i get something from all of them,it's very hard to post on them all,but like you i'm willing us all on.

Best wishe's,

seano.

Went for my Doctors appointment yesterday and the grinning old bag receptionist said...it was yesterday! It wasn't, but what is the point in arguing. "You'll have to call 8.30am tomorrow for a same day appointment"...no compassion..."or, if you are really ill go to A&E".....absolute b****. Tried ringing this morning..permanently engaged so went round in person....phone off the hook....and so I have managed to get an appointment to see a doctor later on. How is it possible to be ill after all these weeks...I'm utterly frustrated with it all.

One of my daughters is going out Saturday...for anyone who followed my diary it's the one who left last year...ditched everything...then when the cash ran out came home. She succeeded in killing something special between us and things are very different now....anyway she is going out....not just locally...going to Nottingham.....booked into a hotel....she owes me shed loads of cash too...she wiped out all her ISA savings....you see this is where some of the stress comes from. I suppose I should really be saying NO...but instead I am lending her money. Yeah, she will pay it back because she is working but that's not the point...I am weak with our girls...I wish I was stronger.....but that wouldn't be me.

I have no thoughts of gambling today...no urges to gamble either. I just want to feel well again...I wonder if all my gambling past has had a delayed adverse affect on my health...I have honestly never been so poorly in my life. Look after your health guys!

Going now....speak soon