2010

Hi Jas,

That is so cheeky of them to take the phone off the hook, so they didn't have to take calls!

That was a very honest post about your frustration at being too easy on your girls. That is a real strength to be honest about the aspects of yourself that you do not like. You are already one step ahead, being aware of this. Most people are not this self-aware.

Hope you can find some acceptance today, for who you are right now. Acceptance also of your situation. I can totally relate to why you feel fed up, I would too, but theres a certain peace in being able to say to yourself 'I dont like the way things are today, but I accept them anyway'.

You are a great lady, and a great Mum Im sure. If being stronger saying 'no' is something you would like to work toward, thats great - but you are ok as you are for now in the moment. You can be normal, fallible, and make mistakes AND amazing at the same time.

So there! lol.

Take care,

f x

Hi Jas

Sending love and hugs. Let them all just get on with it and just look after yourself.

It takes months to get better from an infected chest. Take it easy. Don't overdo it. By doing too much too soon we often hinder our recovery.

God Bless

Charly/Sabine xx

Sorry to hear you are still feeling poorly-hopefully things will pick up soon.

I know what you mean about the kids--I love mine dearly but I could not eat a whole one!!

My son is off to stay in a hotel in Nottingham on Saturday night-----perhaps we will be in-laws haha

I CANNOT LOSE IF I DO NOT START

Stumper

ps no gym again-going for a meal

Hi Jas, sorry your still under the weather.

Better to lend your daughter money than gamble it.

Last post on diary really appreciated as you end it 'your friend'.

I may be nieve and maybe we're all just on here to help conquer our illness but I really do believe I have made friends on here in the last 3 weeks.

My performance was outstanding today gain.

What is Love?

Thanks for the posts everyone.

Decided to go out...wanted to go with my sister but she's gone to the casino...straight from work.....we were only talking last night about recovery and addiction......and so I will go out on my own even though I feel rough. Been in so long I've got cabin fever! There's a great pub locally where they have live bands so I think that's where we will end up.

I've "lent" my daughter the money for her night out tomorrow...I surrender 🙂

Nite all.....Jas x

My sister decided against the casino and we went out together. I can't begin to tell you how much this means to me. She rang me and I said "where the f*** are you, you promised me" and she said "going out with you"................Jas has had a few...he he he....but I am not gambling as I would normally have done.

All the bills are paid, incy wincy bit of savings, piggy bank is surviving....my mind is calm.....still drinking but absolutely no gambling.

Love to everyone....Jas x

Hi Jas,

Personally I think its great that you lend your daughter money, even if its the kind of lend that we know is a permanent borrow that we'll never get back! I see that as as a devoted, loyal and loving mother. Another poster mentioned that it is better to do that than gamble it away and that is certainly true too.

I laughed at your comments about the receptionist! I am sure she must be related to the receptionist at my local GP surgery here in Radstock (Bristol way) because it sounds like you're describing the same person! What is it with surgeries and even the Doctors themselves? I find the Doctors I see so rude and arrogant, they don't listen half the time and want you in and out as quickly as possible. I have no faith in them or their diagnosis much of the time. I am seeing them a lot recently for severe back problems and they are pretty useless to be honest to date. Anyway, that's another story.

Haven't read your whole diary but have started too, so I'll be playing catch up for a while. Just really wanted to make the point about the money to daughters because that is a good thing, believe me, don't think otherwise. Its also good to listen to them too though so hopefully the balance is right. My mum often supported me which was great but I felt there were times when she gave me money just to get me out of the house because she couldn't cope! I never really felt she listened to me when I needed to talk or confide in her about seomthing.

Lots of love and keep up your good spirits,

Simon.

jasmine. . "Grinning old bag" hilarious ave told you before your posts are funny. . . You ve bailed your daughter oot again. . As ive said they re your bairns. My parents still bailing me oot and am 40 next year . .keep the fight up

Hi Jas

Thanks again for your post on my diary. I see you are still feeling ill.I hope you get better soon.wp is right some of your posts are hilarious.Its great that even when you are ill you can cheer up others. Hey Jas take it easy on that drink youre making me jealous.Im not out until tomorrow lol. Keep up the good work Jas.All the best Jeff.

Jas thankyou so much for your post on my diary. Your thoughts and comments meant a lot to me.

Perhaps being out with your sister will be the tonic you need to make you feel a little better.

All the best

Stumper

Hi Jas, hope you enjoyed your night out. Going to see a live band sounds good.

Hope you can get your sister to steer clear of the Casino for good eventually.

I'm honoured to have you as a friend.

Love Action

Jasmine, you are one of the few members on here who speaks your mind and who genuinely wants to succeed in stopping gambling - I have a lot of respect for that. I think you can spot someone who doesn't want to stop and is going through the motions a mile off - you don't fall into that category and I know you genuinely want a life which is free of gambling. Long may it continue.

Not quite getting the thing with your sister and the gambling. I know she is ill and you have been through it a bit recently, but surely you stopping gambling and showing her how much better life can be when you're not in that place should be enough for her to see the light?

Glad she decided against going to the casino and out with you instead - I guess only the people who really want to stop will stop and you can lead a horse to water blah blah blah....Any more cliches anyone? Can't do the French accent thing on that 'e' - sorry!

Anyway hope you're not overdoing the drink - remember a healthy mind and a healthy body lead to a happy life! That's £10 please...:-)

Matt

I really enoyed last night...ever had a night that you didn't want to end? I was having a real laugh, enjoying the live music...kings of leon, foo fighters...that sort of stuff...... dancing....and that continued when we got home. I rather like being drunk...it's fun....and then getting all the fave music out. Big kid!

I was so proud of my sister not going to the casino last night but as matt has pointed out I can't really influence her decisions regarding gambling. It was just a horrible feeling when I thought she had gone gambling...I wasn't jealous...just an uneasy feeling in my tummy...I didn't like it....but when she rang and said she was coming to the pub....I was really happy. When she came into the pub we had a cuddle.... she said it had been an absolute killer choosing me over the dreaded G. Cheaper option though lol

I was watching horse racing this afternoon...I absolutely love it...it was never my thing...gambling on horses...I just enjoyed it for the spectacle and the dressing up when I went. This afternoon I was choosing horses by their names which were running and over about four races every one won.......isn't that always the case? We always see the winning and not the losing.

Daughter is in Nottingham now...who knows what she will be getting up to. I'm just happy it's not in my face....no falling through the front door at 6am......

What's on the t.v tonight...a right load of tosh so it looks like i'm going to go through the dvds....................can I share something...we have one of the mega t.v's....not my choice but we bought it after one of my so called "wins"......it was like I was rewarding my family for my behaviour......treating everyone....thing is...in the end....this t.v has cost us £ooo's....false economy or what....so sometimes, when I look at it, it reminds me of my gambling and I don't really like it...but I won't be hard on myself because I'm 10 months into paying back for my foolish days and foolish ways.

Love to all.....Jas x

Hi Jas

Your night out sounds great, a night like that is a distant memory for me who lives quietly, maybe one day!

Found your comments interesting re the days when you only talked to others about gambling - based on chat and your posts on here, you've come a long way honey.

By the way, its dark outside, just letting you know in case you have that big posh telly totally covering the front window like some do!

I've never spoke to Matt but I saw his comments about some not being committed on here - I'm defo in it for the long haul.

Signed

Will Power

P.s. Love Wars

One of my problems in life is I never live for today. Always planning ahead and getting my mind in a right old muddle. I also have a problem with saying "no" to certain people and end up doing a lot of stuff I don't really want to. In truth I get myself into these pickles.

Had a phone call this morning and my family are planning New Year....YES...you heard right...NEW YEAR. Added financial pressure I just don't need at this moment in time....and so I'm currently summoning up the strength and the balls to say no. "Come on, it won't be the same without you"...."Don't be a silly thing, come with us"....I can hear it all now. It's expensive and I've learnt that things don't have to cost the earth to be good. Watch this space.

Health is slightly improved and today will be chores day......now don't get too excited.....planning to polish my granite worktops in the kitchen.....steady on.....ooooh, the excitement. I did used to be obsessively houseproud but gone a bit the reverse now. Shiny worktops here we come!....and then, wait for it, going to cook a moussaka 🙂

Will be back later.....love to all...Jas xx