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thanks for your support jasmine,nice positive post from yourself today...good to see P coming home and you looking forward to the weekend...

Hi Jas

Now you seem a really honest person .

So are you looking forward more to P coming home or more for your gift lol.

Seriously Jas great positive post again.Enjoy your weekend Jeff.

The news and morning t.v is full of racing. Never been interested but I'm even considering putting a bet on. If I did it would be a small each way bet but it's absolutely rediculous. I don't gamble anymore.

I really do feel for you guys who are into the racing. You will have to summon up every ounce of strength in order to abstain. I am thinking of you.

I have turned the t.v off and told P not to buy me a newspaper. I don't want any triggers.

" If I did it would be a small each way bet "

Jas...DONT!!! Please, please do not be tempted or allow yourself to be fooled by the media or the ridiculous & at times manic posts that have been flying around the site over the last week.

In all cases, it is the addiction that comes shinning through in their posts. Slowly chipping away... until they convince themselves that 'its just a one off' or that after x time away they are now in a better place to make these 'decisions'.... I guarantee you it is nothing but the addiction working its way to the forefront.

Haven't the partners been through enough?

Havent all of you gamblers been through enough?

You have come too far Jas.... Urges & feelings pass, you have learnt that... Let them pass and continue onwards & upwards with your life.

Jackie x

You have come too far Jas

thanks jasmine. . Your last post pretty much sums up my week but im winning the battle. . Today is the biggest race of the week the gold cup and thats why its maybe more on tv. . I will hopefully watch it as its up there wi borg macenroe ali frazier the ashes taylor davis in terms of sporting spectacles but there are more than 2 horses in the race and you just never know there maybe a new champion to cause an upset. . One sure fire certainty today jasmine is i wont bet 😉 best wishes wp.

Thanks Jackie and Winning 🙂

Hey Jackie I needed that bloody good shake. I don't do gambling anymore, what the hell was I thinking. Shallow Jas 🙁

This addiction is just waiting for any opportunity to consume me again. For God's sake Jas, you've screwed your life up big time and have put in so much energy and effort into recovery and yet you still allow gambling thoughts to get through.

If I had decided to have a gamble I would probably have spent about 20 quid. Doesn't sound a lot when you say it fast..but you know something that 20 quid would spiral as it always used to...that hasn't changed.

I love my family too much to f*** it all up again. Just when you think it can't get any worse...it actually can...I must remember that.

I can never be trusted again to gamble. There is no middle ground.

Hi Jas

an each way bet? what were you thinking? Glad its out of your head now, you have come too far.

I am home from work early today, shattered, hard week. I like our new comp where we can keep scores - you are 1 up I dont like that bit lol.

Is Bag Of Sand = Hand I am not looking up internet for any of these, you cant either, must just be knowledge based

Boat Race

It's my curry night tonight and my family are coming round. I am dead excited. My sister rang and usually if I was doing something like this I would be full of anxiety and panic and I have been known to cancel stuff at the last minute. Choosing to immerse myself in solitary online gambling. That is no more. I am really up for tonight.

My head and heart are so much lighter and I actually do feel happy.

Got the last bit of cooking to do and then it's all go. Come Dine with Jas!

I was in town yesterday. I was updating my savings passbook at the building society...yes, you heard it right savings! There was a member on here named Alan when I first found the site. He inspired me to start a small savings plan...it's been nearly a year and I haven't touched any of it. If you are reading this Alan, thank you.

Enjoy your weekends everyone.

Jas xx

Hey Jasmine.. great stuff on the savings! I went for years without savings.. just living pay day to pay day.. always full of anxiety in case i lost my job. Now like you I have savings.. not alot.. but enough so that if I lost my job I wouldnt have an immediate panic about how to pay rent/bills etc. I also keep ahead on rent/bills which feels a bit like savings sometimes (just without the interest or being able to wthdraw it lol). Savings and being ahead on bills etc brings me a sense of safety amd comfort especially living on my own.

Have a lovely curry night.. am sure you will.. S.A 🙂

Hi Jas

Hope you enjoy your family gathering and manage to cook everything ok and not burn the house down, if you do of course there is the old traditional takeway option!

Dont worry about me I am sticking to my plan and having gotten through this week safe I'm sure I can stay on track.

I'm not very good at this cockney rhyming stuff but I'm not giving up. Is Apples and Pears = Bus Fares?

Jam Jar

Jas,

I haven't had to tell you off!! Doesn't that say something??

Take care

Jas

Do i luv curries.

Tonight is my curry night too.Sometimes i make one but usually a takeaway.Tonight is only madras but the hotter the better for me Vindaloo,Phaal.I remember on a saturday i had to borrow the money to get one about 6 o clock every week ,after an awful day at the bookies.Gone are them days now Jas .I can even have a starter now lol.Enjoy your night Jeff.

jasmine. . I dont want to join in your game with the captain but hope your "ruby murray" night went well. . Here s a topical one for you and a place your friend frequents a lot and people on here try to avoid "CREAM COOKIES". . .sounds as if im an expert but im certainly not. . Good guess from the captain but If i was him i would cheat and buy a book. . Best wishes. . wp

Hi Jas

Hope you have had good weekend and glad I gave you a laugh with my attempt at apples and pears!

you didnt confirm answer to my last one??

Assume Loaf Of Bread - Head ?

Still no random gambling for me. Sure you are still on the wagon too.

Cream Cookies ( thanks to wp for reminding me of that one, cant believe I didnt use that first!)

Amazing evening that I wanted to go on and on and on. I didn't think of gambling at all.

It's my birthday next Tuesday and everyone gave me cash as a pressie. It means a lot to me. I feel so grateful. I love birthdays.

It's taken nearly a full year to get me here. Feel rather emotional actually.

Thanks to everyone who has helped me.

Jas x