2025....... a simpler year...... less scrutinising..... more time for myself

Another four days have gone by...... been neglecting my gamcare recent days as found a new forum called fpl family....... its a fantasy football forum and people chat all things footy related..... its five pounds a month and i only thought about joining as the manager with the most points each month wins an 100 pounds amazon voucher and a the top three get a football shirt of thier choice...... I joined as this week i am 95th in the world for points out of the 11,200,000 playing the game......crazy absolutely nutz...... so ive got a cracking start over the competition in the league and am first.  Each week i usually spend too many points on transfers but ive managed to just spend four this week and am really trying to keep my lead....

Ive been monitoring my steps and the number of times ive been to the gym and ive currently done 5.6 miles average walking a day for the past year (well since feb last year) and have been to the gym on average 3.14 times a week...... trying to keep this on 3  times a week as that a good amount to go.

I usually dont go to pubs, as they expensive, i get anxious and mostly because i dont drink alcohol.  But some friends travelling over from other towns tomo to visit and they want to go to a pub so im going to go for a couple then maybe cook them a meal over here......  I usually say no to this as i get voices ov ernight however i have to live a little and see friends or ill lose touch with everyone...... Plus its a saturday so less sleep fine.

Soo far this year  (5 weeks) ive spent 36 hours playing playstation... last year i played 150 the whole year and felt i shouldd have played more..... so double soo far a good start...... little bit of eeverything is my goal.

I said id like to scrutinise less on my finances this year and boy have i done that...... ive literally hardly ever looked at it....ive been busy doing other stuff.... and my finances been great....i thought last week i might buy a handheld ps portal but in all fairness my tv great picture quality and i wouldnt play it at work on breaks or on a train as i dont travle now....

It's tight this month, im lending a friend a hundred as theyre short, ive transferred 800 to my dad this month, which leaves no money for anything else this month...... however ive topped up my sainsburys card with 70, i get free coffees each week from both waitrose and cafe nero with octopus and like to spend my time at home or walking or at gym anyway so dont need any money really.

Ive also got Paramount plus and now tv...... I got paramount plus on black friday with 4k ultra hd and use by 4 people at once..... so i told my friends my password and now 4 of us can watch..... and it only cost me 48 pounds....been watching lots and lots...... so that great...... Also now got sky sports and sky entertainment for another 6 months to watch the rest of the season un fold.

Been out walkng at midnight on weekends too....... good to get some exercise although you never know who you will walk past at that time so think ill stick to day walking from now on.

All the best Adam xxx

Hi diary..... wow ten days have passed..... Well whats happened? i have had a productive couple of weeks.....

i watched Gladiator 2 saturday night and for the first time in a few years i didnt get voices on a saturday night!!!!! wow that felt good.....fully rested and recharged now.....

Now the reason i didnt get voices was because i didnt see anyone the whole day..... but i know this isnt possible to do in future...... i need to see friends and family.....but it did feel very good laying in bed with a clear head no one interupting my headspace....

i have continued to play playstation and am really enjoying it.....

I finnished the first week of my fantasy football monthly competition 70th in the world out of 11,200,000 for that week..... then currently im 200,000 for the second week.....im currently top of the league for the manager of the motnh and hoping to win a football shirt and more importantly the confidence that comes with wining something.

hello diary..... 9 days have passed......

I had voices sunday night and didnt sleep so was really tired so phoned in work sick...... went back to work yesturday.......had my return to work interview today and they said as ive had three mondays off work in a year due to the voices and not sleeping maybe it would help to not work any mondays anymore...... i said id be happy to do that if the hours were spread over the four days and i didnt lose any hours...... he said it might involve just working less hours...... Bit worried about it ....about the change.... it would cut my pay by a fifth and i only earn 1100 a month as it is......

On the flip side if i done the hours over tues - fri each week and didnt lose any money and had mondays off would be great.

Have to see what happens.

Ive got the rest of the week off work..... gonna have a lie in tomo then meet a friend for a coffee and look round the shops then watch a film round here.....

Ive been keeping up with the steps..... not really counting them anymore just keeping up with them regardless....

Got an email thru from the managing agent saying the roof of one of the blocks of flats needs repairing and the quote is 20k ....... so if it has to go ahead and everyone pays a fair share thats a 1-2k bill for me coming thru soon...... 

Not exactly the news i wanted to hear on either fronts but got to take the rough with the smooth.

One plus side this month after bills ive spent under 40 pounds (solely milk and bread and a pappa johns)...... pretty chuffed with this im pretty good with money nowadays.....

One the fant footy i used my free hit for the last week of the manager of the motnh and it worked great first night tthen a blank tonight...... would need over 20 points from last three players tomo night to win it.....but hopefull yif i dont get this ill be near enough for second or third for the footy shirt...... we will c.....