2025....... a simpler year...... less scrutinising..... more time for myself

Another four days have gone by...... been neglecting my gamcare recent days as found a new forum called fpl family....... its a fantasy football forum and people chat all things footy related..... its five pounds a month and i only thought about joining as the manager with the most points each month wins an 100 pounds amazon voucher and a the top three get a football shirt of thier choice...... I joined as this week i am 95th in the world for points out of the 11,200,000 playing the game......crazy absolutely nutz...... so ive got a cracking start over the competition in the league and am first.  Each week i usually spend too many points on transfers but ive managed to just spend four this week and am really trying to keep my lead....

Ive been monitoring my steps and the number of times ive been to the gym and ive currently done 5.6 miles average walking a day for the past year (well since feb last year) and have been to the gym on average 3.14 times a week...... trying to keep this on 3  times a week as that a good amount to go.

I usually dont go to pubs, as they expensive, i get anxious and mostly because i dont drink alcohol.  But some friends travelling over from other towns tomo to visit and they want to go to a pub so im going to go for a couple then maybe cook them a meal over here......  I usually say no to this as i get voices ov ernight however i have to live a little and see friends or ill lose touch with everyone...... Plus its a saturday so less sleep fine.

Soo far this year  (5 weeks) ive spent 36 hours playing playstation... last year i played 150 the whole year and felt i shouldd have played more..... so double soo far a good start...... little bit of eeverything is my goal.

I said id like to scrutinise less on my finances this year and boy have i done that...... ive literally hardly ever looked at it....ive been busy doing other stuff.... and my finances been great....i thought last week i might buy a handheld ps portal but in all fairness my tv great picture quality and i wouldnt play it at work on breaks or on a train as i dont travle now....

It's tight this month, im lending a friend a hundred as theyre short, ive transferred 800 to my dad this month, which leaves no money for anything else this month...... however ive topped up my sainsburys card with 70, i get free coffees each week from both waitrose and cafe nero with octopus and like to spend my time at home or walking or at gym anyway so dont need any money really.

Ive also got Paramount plus and now tv...... I got paramount plus on black friday with 4k ultra hd and use by 4 people at once..... so i told my friends my password and now 4 of us can watch..... and it only cost me 48 pounds....been watching lots and lots...... so that great...... Also now got sky sports and sky entertainment for another 6 months to watch the rest of the season un fold.

Been out walkng at midnight on weekends too....... good to get some exercise although you never know who you will walk past at that time so think ill stick to day walking from now on.

All the best Adam xxx

Hi diary..... wow ten days have passed..... Well whats happened? i have had a productive couple of weeks.....

i watched Gladiator 2 saturday night and for the first time in a few years i didnt get voices on a saturday night!!!!! wow that felt good.....fully rested and recharged now.....

Now the reason i didnt get voices was because i didnt see anyone the whole day..... but i know this isnt possible to do in future...... i need to see friends and family.....but it did feel very good laying in bed with a clear head no one interupting my headspace....

i have continued to play playstation and am really enjoying it.....

I finnished the first week of my fantasy football monthly competition 70th in the world out of 11,200,000 for that week..... then currently im 200,000 for the second week.....im currently top of the league for the manager of the motnh and hoping to win a football shirt and more importantly the confidence that comes with wining something.

hello diary..... 9 days have passed......

I had voices sunday night and didnt sleep so was really tired so phoned in work sick...... went back to work yesturday.......had my return to work interview today and they said as ive had three mondays off work in a year due to the voices and not sleeping maybe it would help to not work any mondays anymore...... i said id be happy to do that if the hours were spread over the four days and i didnt lose any hours...... he said it might involve just working less hours...... Bit worried about it ....about the change.... it would cut my pay by a fifth and i only earn 1100 a month as it is......

On the flip side if i done the hours over tues - fri each week and didnt lose any money and had mondays off would be great.

Have to see what happens.

Ive got the rest of the week off work..... gonna have a lie in tomo then meet a friend for a coffee and look round the shops then watch a film round here.....

Ive been keeping up with the steps..... not really counting them anymore just keeping up with them regardless....

Got an email thru from the managing agent saying the roof of one of the blocks of flats needs repairing and the quote is 20k ....... so if it has to go ahead and everyone pays a fair share thats a 1-2k bill for me coming thru soon...... 

Not exactly the news i wanted to hear on either fronts but got to take the rough with the smooth.

One plus side this month after bills ive spent under 40 pounds (solely milk and bread and a pappa johns)...... pretty chuffed with this im pretty good with money nowadays.....

One the fant footy i used my free hit for the last week of the manager of the motnh and it worked great first night tthen a blank tonight...... would need over 20 points from last three players tomo night to win it.....but hopefull yif i dont get this ill be near enough for second or third for the footy shirt...... we will c.....

ive won the footy shirt wooop........1 point behind first place....three places get a footy shirt....horray....going to get a brighton shirt for my nephew

Here i am a week later......

This week ive focused on a few things...... firstly work.....ive worked pretty hard and am reaping the rewards....i do still overthink about work but i cant help that....last week as id had the monday of work (not slept had voices all nightneeded sleep on the monday)....... my manager asked whether id like to not work mondays to help.....ive only had two mondays off work in the last 12 months.....with this in mind my parents said that it wasnt a huge pattern so it should be fine to continue working mondays...... i said that id like to have them off if i could do extra hours the rest of the week....to which my manager said they couldnt do that (so really i think they were just trying to cut costs as per usual.....So i had thought a lot about work over tghat weekend but all for nothing as nothing changed....just a waste of time thinking about it......  But ive had a good week at work and helped out massively.

Next thing ive focused on is spending no money hahahah as per usual finances on my mind...... I topped up my sainsburys card before march by 50 pounds..... ive got a lot of food in freezer including 4 steaks, 200 cocktail sausage rolls, fish, pizza etc....... enough for the month......so just need to buy milk and bread for the month with the 50 and i could potentially last the month on no money....... Also my waitrose coffees are no totally free (dont want to take the P**s so go once a week)....... but last year i spent 500 pounds getting free coffees....but waitrose a bit pricey so last two months ive spent zero in waitrose....... also last two months no council tax bill horray as feb mar two months i dont pay it...... so i also brought my nephew a birthday present 18 pounds  and paid the fant footy £5.40 a month..... also ive paid upfront for sky sports and paramount so just paying the broadband 24 a month last two months....also paid upfront600 quid for 6 years ps plus and 88 for xbox ultimate......... so all in all this has contributed to a massive saving over feb and march and as ive earnt 1179 each month feb march ive saved 817 feb and soo far 943 in march.....absolutely cracking...... so this is the last motnh of my financial year and i use spreadsheet to keep track and this year 24/25 ive spent 2780 pounds on my entertainment including a ps5, driving rig, vr2 vitrtual reality, ps plus for 6 years, harddrive, extra controller, (next year however at mo its only 550......) and over the 8 year period for entertainment ive budgeted itll be 8k 80 pounds a month for everything.  However with all my saving i may treat myself to a switch 2 also with the new mario kart (we will see)......rant over....

Ive also been thinking about my health this week and my steps....... ive been to the gym three times and walked 84k steps (target was 82)......however ive treated myslef to quite a few sweet snacks this week and my waist line must be getting bigger as my new trousers for work are now very tight again....think it maybe the bread again...... not eaten any crisps this week on a plus.....I have bought some fruit...... and been taking my mulitvitamins each day which have been helping.....

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Here we are another week........ another pressure kills results..... so im not putting myself under any.....if im performing well then so be it....im thankfull to be gamble free.....to have a roof..... to have food..... to have family and friends.......

When i came here it took years yes years to get gamble free for more than a week.....now im succeeding and over 1900 days gamble free....... 

I scrutinise on finances and ive taken that a step too far and ive spent nothing soo far this month..... wanted a treat at lunch....wanted a treat on way home....wanted but got thru it and ate healthy today losing .4 of a kg in the process two goals achieved thru a bit of tough love on myself.

I have saved 1700 over the last two months in total..... all in order to give myself the treat of a switch 2 when it comes out.....tough love on myself over the past year has seen my personal best year savings for since ive moved into my flat......It maybe a small flat i own and no savings but i do own the flat now and as a humble hospital porter my investment and work ethic has got me very far and secure.....  I think my strength and one that most dont see is that being humble and being happy with not stretching myself financially makes me more happy....... Im happy in my small flat.....its probably one of the cheapest flats in my area..... its not a house.....its not detatched.... i dont own a car....i dont go on holidays abroad.....but im liquid....most if they lose their job can only survive one month...... i can survive much much longer...... i dont now have a mortgage to pay.... most when they do that simply move to a bigger house and stretxh themselves financially further and never feel truelly secure.........

Now am i going to not stretch myself in life......ive played my cards....ive played my had.....and im sticking with what ive got........  

so if ur thinking about that move to a big 1 million pound house in the future....ur dream house....think do you actually need it or would ur life be better if it was simpler and less complicated....... how much of a slave are u to ur assets....... 

Just a few thoughts

Another ten days have passed......gambled no way

well its been thriteen days since my last proper post on here so thought id pop by......

Last weekend i went for a curry with a couple of friends.....thought it was a good idea as not been out for a meal in a while..... however i got really ill after it and only managed to work a half day on the monday before going home sick...... i then had tuesday off work and back still feeling ill on the wednesday...... battled thru the week not eating much and have now got to the weekend where ive been still doing my steps (71,600 for the week).....still feeling pretty weak but ive managed it.

Boss says that when someones off for more than three days sick a year they look into it....i think theres literally no way ill ever get below three for a year..... but ill try.

its getting to the april mark of the year where they announce whether we get a pay rise...... usually we get 1.8% once or twice we got nothing..... hopefully its good news..... but im fine at the moment financially so just happy to be in a job where i get paid (??????i know low self confidence self value ey????)

Ive successfully got to the point where im playing the right amount of computer games, watching the right amount of box sets, on gamcare right amount of time and visiting the gym the right amount to get good value out of each of these things im paying for...... ive done 65 hours of comptuer games in three months..... so 20 hours a motnh.... so an hour a day 2/3rds of the time..... really enjoyed it too..... im bnot spenidng anymore money on it tho im just going to use the game pass and premium pass for the games from now on for the next 6 years untill the new consoles come out.

Ive got a year left of paying for the sofa ive bought on creit and then theres literlally no direct debits going out each motnh.... so i think just before that date ill transfer my new bank accout to lyoylds and take advantage of thier free disny plus plus 175 pounds for transferring..... the last transfer last year was good and got me 175 pounds so i think ill do it again next year....... although my mum thinks im greedy....

Im going to now work on upping my weights training at the gym...... theres gaps in between weights training but u burn more calories doing it and i went to increase my upper body strength..... thats my new goal for this year.......

Thought id post there as sometimes it deletes itslef hahaha..... ive learnt to copy and paste at certain points in posts to make sure its not lost if it doesnt post....... old dog new tricks here.

Its the last month of the financial year and ive tallied up all my spending....... 1510 on food and drinks......2800 on entertainment......5000 on bills.......and 6000 on paying back debts......earnt 15000......  Was pretty strict on myself thru this year...... with paying upfront for all my entertaiment..... (oled tv, xbox series x, ps5, vr2, driving seat, steering wheel) and getting on the right path with all bills (eg negotiating and cutting back on unessentials ) im on a great path now for the next 6 years...... its all paid for and although last two years totalled 5k with next six years budget is 500 a year so 3k all in...... i may get sky sports on now tv for 6 motnhs a year so that will add 150 ish but thats really worth it for me as i love watching football.

wow ive done 2941 posts on here....really have typed a lot....this site really helps me really does.... has been a great place to come.... and sort myself out.....

So all in all its just a post to say im going to keep doing what im doing at mo and set to keep to the plan for this year..... a simpler life.... less scrutinising myslef and more of the same..... All set for the summer months now....ill soon turn the heating off for the year..... and be complaining hopefully that its too hot like everyone else does thru summer..... as brits we love to talk weather hahahahahaha

Another three days have passed, done lots of steps, done lots of weights, work been going well, cleaned flat, eaten well, 18k steps today, 55k over first four days of week..... all in all going well

Another 3 dys have passed.....another saturday night..... time for an update...... ive now been on this site for 10 years......wow 10 years..... many thansk to all who keep this site running......it helps soo many and my life is completely different as a result of what u have done ....

Two days left of march..... ive done 352000 steps soo far this month..... really proud of this..... literally most days ive been walking..... been to the gym and played table tennis quite aa few times witth my parents we all really like playing and we are getting better......looks like ill finnish the month on 370000 works out over 12000 a day......without rest days......

Im eating less calories too ...... ive been getting the protein in this week but having less carbs...... more fruit..... less veggies...... need to up the veggies....... but im still getting over the illness from the curry couple of weeks back.

But all in all im pleased with my progress im going to the gym lots and really im utilising my time outside of work really well......i  do have a lot of time but im gaming, watching boxsets, cooking, watching footy, going to gym, walking, etc really good to see it working for me my stumach is going down...... and looking trimmer..... its taken years and years of a marathon type of approach but i done it slow burn so i didnt get an injury.....started 13 motnhs ago..... and currently only 3 kgs less in weight..... and still 5 kgs less to lose untill im not overweight....... but i feel i probably wont get to that weight..... so im not setting it as a goal..... just aiming to be active and in a calorie deficit.......

Finances wise is also an extreme approach...... this month the only things ive bought is food for the whole month...... ive bought three portions of chips at work, a coffee, a sausage roll form greggs and a curry......apart from that ive spent 60 pounds in sainsburys and 10 pounds in waitrose.....  So all in all i have spent 90 pounds..... and put 670 pounds towards my debts........

So all in all a great month

Been watching a lot of videos lately by gaming you tubers talking about upcoming nintendo switch two..... yesturday they done a launch video talking about it and argos started selling their pre orders today......

Now it's expensive and i thought long and hard about it.....but overall i thought i love gaming and you only live once right? so i tried to get the pre order today...... i went to look before lunch at work and it was out of stock.....but then i looked again on lunch and the mariokart bundle was in stock horray.....

It was £429.99 and i got £100 for my birthday (may 30th ) from my folks, and also £175 from switching my bank account today...... so if you take these off it only cost me £155...... super sweet purchase......

Really really looking forward to playing with family and friends round here when they are over...... it should arrive 5th of june.......

Recovery going great....... spending a lot of time on all hobbies...... keeping healthy...... and being wise in many ways....... obsessing about certain aspects of life as per usual...... but im an all or notihng type of person....

Well 10 days have paased....... A lot has happened, last sunday my mum had a heart attack early hours and was rushed to hospital and straight in for an operation and stent put in...... i was soo worried but she got out of hospital two days later and is now resting thank god she ok........ My sister is also starting chemo after a cancer operation too...... she will be doing chemo for at least six months..... but hopefully after six months she will finnish it and be back on top form.....i obviously been very worried.....but u have to stay positive.....

Thought about cancelling my nintendo order but im not gambling and this cements why i dont gamble and is a rewards for not doing so....... so ill keep itvordered and look forward to playing it.......

As spurs played in europa thurs night i booked friday off........ it was a lovely day as was very sunny.....i spent the day in my garden....then had some friends over saturday for a bbq.......i spent a lot on food but it was well worth it.....

Ive actually got the week off as holiday the week after easter but as ive had sometime off and its not gonna be sunny ive gone to cancel it and will have it in june......

work going well had my quarterly 1 to 1 with boss and im achieving all objectives (although they are all very easy).......he just said i should take less tea breaks...... but i love a cuppa lol

all in all good adam xx