I would appreciate no posts on this diary please until I get a few weeks gamble free.
I was tempted to not admit to gambling today but I would only be fooling myself.
Just got to keep trying.
Slept ok but upset after losing my weekly state pension yesterday which had only just gone in the bank. I was supposed to go out with friends last night but that never happened.
I was self excluded from the first betting shop I went in. The staff were very friendly, made me a coffee and gave me biscuits but after an hour a new member of staff came in who recognised me and asked me to leave. Quite humiliating.
Monthly works pension in the bank today and I have enough to get by for the month, providing I do not give it to the machines.
Going out tonight for a meal/disco at Holiday Inn which will be a lot of fun.
So here I am on day one again. Maybe this time I can do better.
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Your weekly state pension, my few months monthly wage.. I am a bit at a loss of what to say. I feel the feeling and pain. ..devastation and I suppose upset that we made that wrong choice.
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Recovery is a long road...so much to learn, so much to achieve.
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Be kind to yourself. Try again, that's all we can do...don't lose hope.
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Stay safe Stephen, take the positives of life, there are many...
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S&B xx
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