2nd Week of a Gamble Free Life

Hi Everybody, let me start that I would not think that gambling would of gotten out of hand so quickly. I never really been much of a gambler - may betting £600 per year on sports betting, lottery. This was under control for the last 7 years as has other things to focus such my my little girls, new job etc. The problem last year when my friends were into this big time - so started to put £250 bets on football which I lost. Then one day this year - we went a big city Super Casino when I was introuduced to Roulette which I had won £30. I had been a few times and it was fun though was always under control. Then I saw many adverts through the paper to sign up new customers and though this could be fun. So one day I had opened a account, deposited some money and staring winning. This was my downfall. I had lost and deposoited again - £500 in one night and got it up to £400 - lost the following day. This has then hooked me and I was also having a few familly issues (no excuse) but was a great to escape this. Then the following week, I had deposted £10,000 from a savings account and started to play - again I was up, doubled my money but lost it in 10 mins. So what did I do? Chase my losses and taken out a money transfer from my credit card - same think happended but lost the money in one day. I then self excluded for 1 week. Now my mind was all over the place as needed to win the money back. Then I had taken a £15,000 loan of which I had placed £10,000 in the betting account. You guessed ir lost it again - but this time in my lunch hour which was bad - though I did not feel anything. I then self excluded for 1 month. Now I'm down £30,000. Thank god, I had used the other £5000 to pay a chunk of my Mortgage and paid some bills. I thought this was over and could move on with my life. But the dreaded addiction came again and the devil rose inside of me. I just was thinking one last chance to make some money back. So again the cycle repeats it self - £15,000 loan and placed £10,000 in the betting account playing roulette. After some lucky breaks, I had made £30,000 in one week. I had withdrawed the money - but I cancelled this and started to play again. I was upto £45,000 feeling happy. Then I got up early morning as this addiction was taking hold of me and lost it all in 10 mins. I felt gutted. All of last weekend I was saying to myself what "IF" - but time and money now has gone and need to move on from this. I need to put this down to a bad investment that crassed and gone wrong. There's no more money available to gamble with. Today was a test - I had £2500 left in my bank account - so the devil said - one last best bu NO. I had paid £1800 off the credit card which I aim to clear in 6 months. Will leave the loans as this would be a reminder of not to bet ever again! I've got 4 years of hard work ahead - though my aim to now to be gamble/debt free for ever. Hope this makes sence. (mind the spelling) 🙂