Not sure how to start but know I need a diary to keep me focused.
I'm age 30 and a single mum to 4 beautiful children and I have been a compulsive gambler for just over a year now falling in deeper and deeper with every binge I can seem to go short amounts of time without gambling at all and then I'll have a few days where I'm just on self destruct I won't stop wether I'm winning or loosing until I am down to the last few pounds in my account the last straw was 4 days ago after gambling heavily for 4 days and ending up over 500 down and having taken out another 2 payday loans! I am still so upset as this money was meant for all my children's school things etc I'll still manage but now it will be a real struggle,I now have a blocker on my phone and have self excluded from every account I have used,no urges today but have a split shift at work so no time and with the blocker no access either 🙂
Day 5 of no gambling and having lots of urges already today I am so glad I have the blocker on my phone to stop myself! Trying to keep busy just about to start a game of monopoly with the kids 🙂
Hi Trouble P
Well done reaching day 5, today is my 1st day after 10 years of compulsive gambling so I know how hard it is. Enjoy the monopoly with the kids.very best wishes on your journey
I'm a failure couldn't even do 5 full days I used my daughters iPad to gamble as I have a blocker on my phone £200 gone I now only have a few pounds left to last until Thursday I could cry this not me I am so strong in all other aspects of life,there is now a blocker on this too,where will it end I was feeling so strong and still I found a way when the urges hit I wish there was someone I could hand over my finances to 🙁
Trouble P
Don't beat yourself up, you were doing well and at least you have kept some money. It is a tough path but at least you are being honest and trying to deal with this painful addiction.
Best wishes
Thank you John but I do need to beat myself up about it,I have to stop before it has dire consequences for me and my children I love them so much but this addiction is hurting them,they have all they need food clothes etc but they have a mum who can sit for hours on end staring at a screen hoping for a big win its just not good for me or them day 1 again tomorrow,sorry for the rant wasn't aimed at you more at myself.
Trouble P
I understand how much this is hurting your children and it is also hurting you. Be strong for yourself and the children. You can do it, you need to. It is not easy but you got 5 days so remember how that felt.
Best wishes
Thank you very much John I can do this I have to for all of us,I wish you the best on your journey too how has day one gone for you?
excellent Trouble P, you really can do it, you need mechanisms in place when you feel the urge. You will never win because you have no set limit. The more I won the more I wanted. Today has been good thanks.
Stay strong Trouble P baby steps
Thank you very much John for your support,here's to a better future without the evil that is gambling I will NOT let it destroy my future!
Have a good day Trouble P and keep day 2 gf
Thanks John I have work today,awful nights sleep horrible gut wrenching feeling of what have I done again! Today I will not gamble for me and for my children.
No gambling for me today split shift at work so just starting again for the evening!
Good work Trouble P. No gambling for me today either
Good Luck you can do this
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