Thank you Suzanne yes it is a panicky anxious feeling I have also been having dreams of gambling and i wake up thinking it was real it isn't nice at all,I will keep strong this time for me and for my children one day at a time.
Day 5 today they go so quick! Awful nights sleep last night due to the rain then a power cut with house alarms going off in the early hours it's going to be a loooong day,bowling today and then the last of the packing busy busy today I will not gamble for me and for my children 🙂
Day 6 and a 6am start at work! Just grabbing some lunch then housework before I go away in the morning feeling positive.
Day 7 almost done 🙂 arrived on holiday drive was great no traffic! Not many urges looking forward to some fun times with my children.
Well done Trouble P day 7 me to feels good, happy holiday.
Thank you John and well done on a whole week 🙂 day 8 here and all is good sun is shining going to take the children swimming soon.
Day 9 and I've paid 2 payday loans off today 5 more to go! This has made me feel down and angry even though I can just about manage the loans I have if I hadn't of gambled I wouldn't have any at all hoping they'll be all paid off in 3 months.
Well rubbish weather here today so not done much really feeling like a gamble today but glad I can't day 10 double figures just gotta keep going.
Keep up the good work Trouble P, Double figures is a nice place to be.
Best Wishes
John
Thank you John how's things going for you? All well I hope,really rubbish day here feel very stressed I think without the blocker id have gambled a lot of money today huge urges 🙁
Hello Trouble P, things going well, I am working so many hours that I am so tired in the evening so that's probably a good thing.
Sorry about your rubbish weather but the blocker at least is doing it's job. Keep your chin up Trouble P your doing amazing and hopefully tomorrow is a lovely day, you can beat this.
John
Wow day 17 I'm still here back home from holiday,mountain of washing to get through,think this is where I struggle the most when I'm at home,blocker is the best thing I could have done as even when the urges are there I can't act on them,feeling proud of myself today 🙂
Good for you Trouble P, keep up the good work and it will soon be 20 days, as they say a thousand mile walk begins with the first step.
What should have been day 31 today! I have had a huge binge today after a whole month of not gambling new phone with no blocker and £300 down the drain I am so so upset with myself I thought I'd be able to gamble a tenner and stop but we all know how it ends 🙁 day 1 again for me and this time I am not going to get complacent or feel like I can have a small gamble and walk away because I never can.
If at first we don't succeed we try again, well done for not giving up on giving up, and realising that tenner will not work.
We cannot win because we cannot stop.
Break that triangle because when vulnerable it's impossible to play, even when those strong urges come, they don't last long, and you will feel so chuffed you left no tiny gap,
You can do this.
Keep strong and focused.
Suzanne xx
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