Things ticking over, last binge already seems a lifetime ago, typical CG behaviour, the sooner I can convince myself that it was only a slip, another one off, the sooner that voice will be telling me go on, one bet can't hurt can it & before I know it, Boom, I'm in deep again. Need something else to focus on, not healthy standing still & letting my thoughts fester.
Thanks GT, maybe I'll get the golf sticks out the garage, & start spraying the ball all over the local range. Need to fathom out why I keep giving in at the slightest urge, I know I'll never come away on top but the thrill of the bet is just overwhelming sometimes. Anyway day 16 nearly done & dusted, time on my hands this week so need to be vigilant.
Well done Spud your flying try to keep busy and enjoy Xmas
Starting to let this diary slip which has been a sign in the past that my resolve is weakening. Only takes a few minutes a day to update so no real excuse. That is probably one of the reasons I'm a serial failure at trying to kick this addiction, I just can't be bothered to put the effort in. You look at the people on this forum who are making a real success of beating this, they go to GA, they go in the chat room, they read & try to understand why they gamble. Me, l rely on willpower alone which has never been successful in the past so maybe I'm not ready to give up gambling yet. Anyway reached day 36 without a bet, missus & work stressing me out, but no real compulsion to run away back into the gambling world. Here's to a good week.
Hi spud... I feel your pain mate. Mrs and work are winding me up like crazy. Find something to do to take mind off them.
Thanks Change, we're always looking for the smallest excuse to say sod it, it's all your fault so I deserve to go and have a gamble. The muddled thinking of a compulsive gambler. Anyway I grabbed a paintbrush & took it out on the walls. Day 38 & no wishes to return to the horrific gambling world.
Hello diary, well everything was going swimmingly, reached 98 days, felt invincible, no intentions of gambling & then bam, it crept up & got me, to much to drink & access to a credit card, well we all know how it ended. Think this is the worst I've ever felt, really don't care too much about the money, think I've reached the stage where being skint is the norm but mentally & physically I'm struggling. f**k you gambling.
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