A new journey begins.

Well here we are at the end of a gambling free January. Looking back i have had a couple of urges but nothing major and i know my hard times are ahead when complacency sets in. Hey but lets not look to far ahead and enoy what i have acheived. I have a busy weekend planned so will not be thinking of gambling. I am visiting my parents this morning then going out tonight with my wife and kids for a meal. Tomorrow i am going to see the famous Glasgow Rangers. I dont hold out much hope for even a draw but as the game grows closer that will change and by this time tomorrow i will be believing we can win. Enjoy ur weekend everyone

First full month of 2015 complete. Roll on Feb and its 28 days. Up early and off to do a shift before coming back for the old firm game. Hopefully catch a bit of tennis on tv. Really hope Murray can do it .

Well not a good Sunday results wise. My team got beat and Murray lost also. Really didnt expect any more from Rangers but not to even get a shot on target was P**s poor and players are just not good enough. On the plus side it was another gambling free day. Even with a full triangle and mixed with alcohol i did not feel the need to go and gamble. Normally this combination only ends up one way but with my determination and the support of the people on this site i stuck 2 fingers up to gambling. 5 weeks today since my last bet.

Hey Gregg lovely post, you are shining through, here's to sticking 2 fingers up every day, and very well done and on 5 whole weeks,

You have won every day for 35,days and not had to spend even one penny.

Great stuff.

Suzanne xx

Keep it going Gregg.

Stay strong and well done on 35 days...

All the best

Ade

Good morning. I am off work today so going to spend some quality time with my wife. Currently planning our dinners for the rest of the week and then going to shops to get what isvrequired. Maybe catch a bit of lunch and then pick youngest up from school and do something with her. I really love how the simple things in life are enough to keep you satisfied when you are not consumed with the desire to gamble.

Bit of a contradiction after this mornings post but feeling really lethargic tonight and my mind keeps going back to gambling times. I feel as though i am missing the buzz and the thoughts are playing on me. Hopefully by writing on here and reading a couple of diaries i will shake these thoughts away. I fear i am in for a sleepless night tonight as the brain is working overtime just now and just cant settle. I know i will not gamble tonight as i am not a big online fan but will need to not let my guard slip tomorrow. Off to read some more diaries then see if i can get some shut eye as up at 6 am for work.

Hi Gregg,

Hope you are feeling more positive this morning,,those negative feelings don't last long, and you do feel even stronger than before when they go,

37 days today is great going, well done,

Stay strong and keep focused,

Suzanne xx

Well made it home from work without having a bet but still not feeling good about myself. I know i dont want to place a bet and i am not going to but theres something in my mind telling me i can control it this time and everything will be all right. I cant get the little focker to shut up but i am just going to have to ride this and hopefully come out stronger. Going to go for a long bath then an early night and hopefully feel better tomorrow.

Hi Gregg,

Hang in there mate! Don't let those gambling urges get to you. We both know that we cannot control our gambling, so why bother even entertaining those cruel twisted signals that addiction is sending to your brain.

Addiction is a evil f*cker. Don't let it confuse you into gambling again mate.

Stay strong

All the best

Ade

Still struggling. This week has definetely been the hardest. Only positive is i am still gamble free. Im hoping i am over the worst of it for the now and definetely going to try and get back to a positive frame of mind. The fact i done 200 days last year is playing on my mind a lot and i am feeling really impatient and just want to get to they sort of numbers again.

Nt, Suzanne, Ade thanks for the encouragement. Starting to feel better now. Really proud that i have not gambled as this would definetely have led me to gamble but due to you guys and my determination to succeed i have managed to get through this. Think a lot of these feelings came about because of the copious amount of alcohol i consumed on Sunday which has contributed to me feeling down this week. Once again guys thanks for being there. Looking forward to getting back on track and back to my positive self.

Hi Gregg,

39 days today, one day off the big 40 well done you, and I am soo pleased you are getting that positivity back.

You have recognised what has made you feel low this week, and that is very positive for you.

Have a good gambling free day,

Suzanne xx

Day 39 just about complete. Feeling good about myself again. Looking forward to the big 40 tomorrow and then reaching my third target of 6 weeks on Monday. Hope everyone has a good weekend.

Hi Gregg,

Thanks for your post on my diary and good to hear that your positivity is returning my friend.

Indeed I remember Paul 'Max' Miller very well! He forged a good centre back pairing with Graham Roberts who i'm sure you will be very familiar with , as he was recruited by the Gers when the English invaded Ibrox!!

Enjoy the weekend, and early congrats on the big FOUR - OH!!

Keep strong

Ade