Christmas shopping day yeey.
too busy working yesterday to even think about gambling.
my stepson has just turned up slept in a shed as he was to P***** to find my house last night lol to be 21 again
Have a good weekend peoples.
Stay Strong.x
Feeling angry with myself today have done most of the christmas shopping dribs and drabs to do during the week.
But whilst doing the shopping all i could think of was the amount of money ive wasted over the years.I know i know dont look back but i just couldt shift the anger towards my self.
we will have a decent christmas and theres people who will have alot less and some with nothing but every now and then this self loathing hits me for six.
Feeling alot calmer now than earlier but i really need to find away to deal with this anger towards myself.
No gambling today No gambling tomorrow
Stay Strong.x
hey Elizabeth
Yippie.... you had enough money to buy those presents yesterday!
Would you have been able to buy them if you were gambling? Where would your self loathing be if you were still gambling?
From now on every birthday and every Christmas can only get better and better.
I am very proud of you and you should be too. Hold your head up high and tell yourself every few minutes just how wonderful you are.
xxxx
Thank you *** and ADE
To open my diary after havinng a day of self loathing and christmas shopping not a good mixture to see two kind and supportive posts like that really gave me a lift.
*** your right if i was still gambling i wouldnt have been going christmas shopping i would be panicking like crazy but im not so good for me.
Ade your right as well i shouldnt let the past drag me down but as you know sometimes it just hits you out of the blue.
Feeling better about things today got a very busy week ahead work wise not looking forward to it but its all money in the bank.washing machine still broken so off to the exs to use his.
have a good sunday everyone.
Stay Strong.x
It's a scientific fact that washing machines only break down when there is no money available to mend them. And always at Christmas.
Thanku ADE,
Good day today havent had any urges or even any thoughts about gambling yippee for me.
Day off today so have spent a great day with the boys putting up more deccies and making biscuits.
Work starts tomorrow with a vengence busy all week so wont even have time to go online and even if i do blocks are in place and mum is taking all my cash i collect in this week so will only have my petrol and lunch money on me.
Need to do some more christmas shopping but with work i wont get into town before christmas eve never left it this late before but its only bits and pieces so not to bad.
Feeling quite proud of myself as a few weeks ago i didnt think we would have much of a christmas but thanks to not gambling and taking quite a few extra hours this week
No gambling today No gambling tomorrow.
Stay Strong.x
duplicate post
Hi Liz,
So nice to see you so happy away from gambling and rightly so. Doesn't bare thinking about how life would be now if you were gambling but you're not!! All your time and money is going into the things you love, I'm sure this is gonna be the best Christmas you've had for a very long time. Stay proud of who you are and where you are going.
Take care
Keith x
Well done you are doing great 🙂 and yes you should feel proud of yourself
Keep staying strong and wishing you and your kids a very merry Christmas x
Thankyou ADE,KEITH and PINK
What a lovley way to end a hard day at work opening my diary to some kind words.
My shoulders hurt,my knees hurt and my hands but the money i have earned today has not been gambled as it would in the past but spent on a couple of extra presents for the boys.
Really starting to look forward to christmas now and i feel very lucky to have found some great people on here to share my ups and downs with.
I will feel very proud to stand up With everyone in the new year and say WE ARE GAMBLE FREE.
Im feeling stronger than i have for a long time about this horrible addiction and feel confident that i can keep this going ,although ill try not to get over confident as thats normally when the beast strikes.
Stay Strong.x
Elizabeth,
You are free. Always be on guard. You have your pride back. Don't let anyone or anything take it away. Well done. Have a really great Christmas and New Year. You deserve it. You are strong. IanB.x
h*r h*r ade thankyou.Back feeling even worse today all this hard work all week i may well sleep through christmas day.
Still feeling confident as i have extra cash today as i got a christmas bonus from one of my customers which i wasnt expecting and my first thought was thats the phone bill paid not gamble it yippee.hopefully my brain has finally started to get the message pay bills etc not gamble.
Stay Strong.x
congrats on the bonus Elizabeth maybe your next one you might beable to spoil yourself 🙂
keep it up x
Thanku guys.
Actually ade im quite a nice stalker as im full of support.i promise i wont turn up on your doorstep lol.
Any hoo recurring theme my back is killing me im not sure i can do another 6 hrs of cleaning tomorrow.
Another bonus today just a small one but its going on me for a change.Christmas food shopping later should be chaos lol.
No gambling thoughts or urges which i still find strange as it wasnt long ago i coulnt stop thinking about it. Its like my brain has gone back to thinking normally again i have money but i dont instantly think about gambling its a nice feeling.Maybe i had a light bulb moment and didnt realise it.
Stay Strong peeps.x
Hi Elizabeth!
Thanks for your post on my diary!
Glad to see your going strong!
Keep going that way-forward!Your in control now.
Have a great Xmas you and your family.
Viggo.
We are available 24 hours a day, every day of the year. You can also contact us for free on 0808 80 20 133. If you would like to find out more about the service before you start, including information on confidentiality, please click below. Call recordings and chat transcripts are saved for 28 days for quality assurance.
