a new way of thinking

Ade do you get the feeling we are just talking to each other lol.:0)

Finally finished work for christmas four days off well tomorrow isnt really off as i have to rush around all morning.

Feeling tired out still got to wrap presents and stockings but no gambling that at the moment is the main thing.No spending any money on non essentials for a while after this completly broke now.

Gambling free new year here i come.

Stay Strong.x

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE.

WISHING EVERYONE A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS.

Doing posts now as got to rush around today then my ex is round later and i wont get the chance to post while he is here.

A big thankyou to everyone who has supported me this year im not sure what i would have done or where id be if it werent for my diary and all you great people who have supported and advised me.

These diaries hold a greater power as a tool for recovery than you realise when you first start them.

Have a good one peoples i will try and post later.

But remember Stay Strong.x

Hi Elizabeth,

Hope you enjoy your Christmas and manage to feel happy with what you DO have, I know it is difficult to let go of all that has been lost.

This can be your year - but only you can make it so. I would love to watch you do just that! you are certainly more than able.

Stay strong, and be proud of your recovery so far.

f x

Merry Christmas Elizabeth

Love Del x

Many thanks for the post Elizabeth,

Wishing you all the best for 2012 yourself - it can be a better year for all of us.

I will get past the broken heart in time, I have to trust in that, and I will use my inner strength to get me to that point.

I firmly believe you can achieve all you want in 2012 and look forward to us all being a year further away from our last bet this time next year.

OS

Good evening and i hope everyone has had a great christmas day.

Everyone has gone home and the boys and i are just settling down to watch doctor who weve had a great day eaten way to much the boys got everything they asked for and life feels good today.

Looking forward to a nice relaxing day tomorrow no cooking and no rushing about.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE.XX

Good morning fellow diariests [another non word i think]

Woke up this morning to find my LO laying in bed eating a tube of pringles at nine o clock great breakfast.

Looking forward to relaxing today no thoughts of gambling at all feeling pretty relaxed and calm.

Not sure how ive managed to get through christmas financially but i have and all my bills are/will get paid amazing what not gambling does to the mind and purse/wallet.

Stay Strong peoples and have a nice boxing day.x

Thanks ade its nice to remind our selves that we are happy.

Nice relaxing day yesterday went to the sales for a few hours and bought myself some bits with christmas vouchers.

No gambling not that i have any money even if i wanted to which i dont i really have this sense of calm about this addiction at the moment its still there at the back of my mind but i think that is the diffrence its gone from the front to the back,the odd thought creeps to the front every now and again "£20 wont hurt"but it seems easy now to swot that away.

I really want 2012 to be my year reading back over some of my diary i sound like a real whinger at times poor me poor me but im the one who put myself in this position well not any more.

Gambling can go do one and my kids and i come first.

I have no doubt as is my want that i will whinge again but as for now the furture looks bright.

Stay Strong.x

Hi Elzabeth.

Don't worry about being a whinger....we've all been one on here!

Great to see that you are so determined to putting you and your kids first.Thats what is important.

All the best for 2012.

Viggo.

Hi Elizabeth 🙂

It sounds like you're doing great, and this is the kind of story I really needed to hear today. It can be done. I hope 2012 will be a great year for you and yours, it's absolutely deserved.

xx

Elizabeth,this is YOUR diary so YOU can let off steam as much as you like.

If someone doesn't like it then they dont have to read it.

The most important thing is its working for YOU and that makes good reading.

Keep up your positivity,you can do it 🙂

Thanks for advise i know i am a loser but i will win this today was my first day of recovery which i did well no bets at all i was betting all the time please don't give up on me 2012 will be bet free

Hi Elizabeth..been so blummin self absorbed in my own stuff and never noticed your diary here.....i wish you all the best for 2012 and it will be definitely your year....i will settle in to read your diary in the next few days..Thank you so much for all your support in my dark place this last few weeks ...don't ever think you whinge!! you are allowed to express your truth and feelings without fear of judgement or criticism...As Shrek says..."better out than in" LOL'.. You have my support 100% unconditionally......Love Rachel and Dotty xxxxxx

Welldone so far Elizabeth you are doing great and whinge away girl better to get it all out thats whats so great about this site you can say how you really feel without people judging you because most of us have felt or feeling the same

wishing you and the family all the best for 2012 its going to be a great year x

You echo my feelings about 2012, Elizabeth!

Together, we can make sure that next year will be a year when many of us on here keep all of our hard earned money for OURSELVES.

This will lead to a return of our real personalities, confidence and self-esteem.

You are so right about rejecting this "£20 will not hurt".

It will.

We are all just one tiny, tiny bet away from disaster.

GT