a new way of thinking

Hi Liz,

You've been doing great last few months, as i said before i have no doubt you will beat this horrible addiction.

Read back from the start of your diary and associate those horrible feeling with gambling, resent gambling and resent the casino owners. You can't win by playing, you only win by abstaining.

Take care

Keith X

morning eliizabth....thinking how your doing...did you get some sleep xx

Hi Elizabeth

Just wanted to echo the sentiments of the last few posts. It will get easier in time. Try running your life forward on a DVD and see what happens if you gamble and if you didn't!

Take care

Thankyou Viggo,GT,wp,Dotty,Keith and Smiler.

Finally got some sleep at about 2 .

I didnt gamble ;0)

Very strange evening felt fine most of the day but then BANG the urge to have a gamble just hit me and i couldnt shake it off.

Spent most of the night reading diaries finally finished ADEs.

My punishment for wanting to gamble is ive woken up completly bunged up.Headache snotty nose and sneezing.

Im determined to beat this and im on GTs list dont want to be taken off and put on the naughty list.:0).

Once again thankyou all hopefully today will be abit easier but i can tell i will have to be on my guard as that urge is still niggling.

Staying Strong.x

Gambling will always be there Elizabeth so tell yourself just for today or even less and urges will pass. Set yourself a goal to do today even if it is walking for a mile or so. Take care and try to find some peace just for today. Take care

Well done on getting through this difficult period. Trust me, we all have these from time to time, consider yourself lucky that you had this one so close to 2012!

There is no naughty list for anyone who might get taken off, just continued support from all of us on here.

But let's hope that it does not come to this!

GT

Well done on getting past the bad time and well done for coming on here and sharing with us how you felt.

I think you did the right thing by reading the diarys I do it most days when i am not bust it takes me right back to how i felt and i really dont want to go back there.

Big hugs and hope the urges dont last too long you know you can get through this xxx

Thanks pink.xx

As an old year goes and a new year dawns.

To my golfballs.

I start with you my littlest golfball the baby id resigned myself to not having you were the saving grace in my life when my house of cards started falling,when others were shouting at me telling me how useless i was how id ruined everything i had you to concentrate on, a new life to grow and nurture,you dont know it but you my little angel saved me from stepping over the edge i was standing on.Id excepted along time ago i would only have one child but when everything in my life was upside down and falling apart i was blessed with you.I look forward to watching you grow even more this year,and at the rate your growing i'll have a little rugby player on my hands.

To my eldest golf ball i remember the day you were born 13 yrs ago like it was yesterday a beautiful summer day with the sun shining and abit of rain.Well where would i be if it werent for you,even though you are still a child you have been a rock to me,when everything went wrong you never judged me just told me you loved me ,when i made the decision to split from your dad you were a big part of that decision,in the year that followed my

confession of gambling your dads drinking got worse and i started to loose you ,the happy child i once knew disappeared and in its place was an unhappy kid disappearing into himself.

We left and within weeks back came my happy boy im so proud of you not only have you grown inside you are now taller than me.Not hard i know.You have blossomed into a great kid your doing fantastically well at school, have rebuilt a good relationship with your dad and i look forward to watching your grow even more in the following year.I am very lucky to be blessed with you two beautiful angels.

To my third golfball my mum.

You have been there for me for as long as i can remember you have never judged me ,never told me i told you so just loved me i will never be able to repay the love,understanding,support,advice that you have given me some might say thats what mums are for but i believe you have gone above and beyond that.if i can be half the mum you are to me we will be ok. I look forward to watching you start a new chapter in your life.

I will make this year a gamble free year ive done it before i WILL do it again.I would also like to find some one this year not even a relationship as such just someone who will wrap me up and tell me everything will be ok from time to time.Its hard to be strong all the time when your on your own it would be nice to share the load sometimes.

To everyone on this forum who has supported me and advised me and read my ramblings this forum has been a godsend to me and i thankyou all.

I made a promise to my kids on my diary that i will not gamble and this reaffirms the promise i made.Next year will be our year.

Stay Strong.xx

Thank you for sharing such lovely words Elizabeth

X

The golfball reference ADEs diary page 420.Just in case any one wonders why i say golfballs.

Thankyou pink.xx

Beautiful. Think of those three when the urges flare up and don't let them down! In the past ve also been a single Mom and can understand your situation. The loneliness may give you a gamble urge, but it really is an isolating activity...not gambling should afford you more time to get out and do things and maybe meet that someone to hold you! That will be my wish for you in 2012! Sharon

Happy New Year Everyone ;0)

Drank far to much now paying the price.

As for gambling urges they seem to be diminishing now.

Two days before new year and bang i get the urge but there was no way i was going to undo all my good work.

Day 67 for me havent had a count up for a while so it makes sense to do it today.

i wouldnt have got this far without the fantastic support and advice from you lot and if any newbies are reading please start a diary and post everyday i never realised what a great tool these diaries are in the fight against this addiction.

Stay Strong.x

keep the posts coming eliabeth..'.now im purged i can read others diaries and posts and give back to everyone who has helped me....as they say "give it away to keep it"....am in a good place for today ,and strong thanks to you and others on here....lean on us...xx keep positive and strong xx

"lean on me..whenever your down..and ill be your friend...and help you to carry on"..tra la la xxx ..

Thanks Ade & Rachel all support and singing kindly accepted.

Well started the new year as i intend to finish it gamble free.

After my struggle with the dreaded urges i am now feeling calm and ready to tackle what ever comes my way this year,i have no doubt that they will rear there ugly head again at some point but i know i have you to lean on

Staying Strong, Positive and confident

Exx

When you feel those urges come back, just remember "2012, I WILL make those RIGHT choices."

And then the world will be your oyster!

GT