Well I blew £800 in the bookies yesterday. A chip and pin nightmare. I knew what I was doing and didn't stop until I thought this is mad get out. I have cut up my debit card I'm going to use my credit card from now on as you can't use them in the bookies and it has a limit on it of £100 withdrawal a day. Over all in the last week I have learned some lessons and now today with all blocks in place I can move forward and not back.. I have debts and they need paying. I feel c**P but with a few weeks gamble free under my belt I will feel better. I did ask the bank about a card with no chip and pin but they said u could just swipe it anyway. So credit card the way forward as limit of £100 and you can't use it in the bookies and I cut off the internet last October so I can't do it online. I have lost a lot less than last year but still lost money I cant really afford. First day today need to be positive and forward thinking.
Well more than half way through the first day. As I've no money oh wait I do have £100. Anyway if I wanna pay all the bills this month that has to last until 1st October. Which is possible. It's just for food. Feeling peed off still. Seen my bro today he said Just Stop I wish it was that easy. I have to be positive remember the losses so u don't do it again I cud drive to the bookies now but I'm not no point as I will never win back what I have lost. Better start the other half of the day.
Sat here watching Brief Encounter what a good film I think the black and white ones are some of the best ones. How people used to speak to one another was much better than today.
At the rock bottom and the only way is up day 1 nearly over I'm gonna make a little tea and watch another film. It's amazing how much free time I have not spinning the wheel.
Day 2 just starting. Head spinning and hope it goes away. Still think what a fool but I will move forwards and onwards.
Well been to work, after walked the dog went to my sister and to my friends. Just had my tea. And I'm so tired I can't move. Still thinking about how stupid u have been and the 8 weeks it will take to get my bank balance back into the black. Totally my own fault the only urge is to go to the bookies and bash the machines in but I'm not like that just a dream I guess.
If this is your eyes open moment and that's the last you gamble it might be worth it
Keep away from all gambling. If you do that well done
If your struggling there's other support available
I have noticed if I don't start betting I don't have an urge I think it's the chase when I lose all money. Doing ok not betting can't be bothered. I hope my disinterest lasts forever. On a good note it's gonna be a hot day today so get out there in the sun everyone
Still going no bets for a week. Staying away from town and if I have to go only £20 on me for shopping
Well ive done 8 days. big test today i have to go into town to dentist. i have to take my card with me just incase i need more than a check up. I can do this. mind over matter and happy no gambling thoughts.
its amazing after a week i feel like i have my life back. but no money to spend.thats gonna take around 16 months to get straight. They say money comes back to you in the end lets hope so. Got all debts on pc. i only now look at it once a week as i dont wanna get too down about it. hope you all are doing ok my only advice is dont bet 1p on anything as u will probs lose 100s or 1000s chasing it back. so don't bet at all. So happy im at 8 days next 80 days then 800 by this time i should be happy forevermore.
I still have no money 15 days on. i got a really bad urge today and i went and sat in the bookies. And the woman from the counter came over and said : are you ok i said : yes then she said im going to have to ask you to leave as ur still self excluded: I was so embarrsed but i thanked her for noticing that i was Self excluded. which im glad i did. and i left with a smle and went about my merry way.
Urges can be so bad that you forget everything that has happened before and again im glad she noticed i was there and snapd me back into the real world.
Back home to upcycling a set of drawers. hope it looks good when its done.
Today I had an amazing bad urge to go and gamble, I have never know an urge like it. I felt sick with a banging head for a few hrs thinking about going out to the bookies. I was thinking just go out and win x amount and you will be happy. At one point I had put my shoes on and was going to go out. But I had to do matter over mind and stop my brain from getting the better of me. It's mad to have an urge like this I'm sick of this feeling . I just think it's my brain looking for a high. It's so sad I'm at this point. But I'm doing everything not to gamble even tho until I pay off my debts it's going to be on my mind how I have ruined a few years of my life chasing losses and looking for winning highs
ive been sticking to stop gambling. i have been in my overdraft for a while well today i got the shock of my life. The bank is closing my current account. they are not giving me a reason why. but i guess it was all the betting transactions on it. so thye have given me 2 months to pay off the overdraft and move. I spent a hole day seeing if i can do it and i can. i just cant draw any money out for a whole month.
Its totaly my own fault i know but this makes me more detrmined to stop and also i will have a fresh bank account with no gambling transctions on it which will be cool and no overdraft to play with which will be new for me but im up for it.
sorry for the ramble but just thought i would tell you how the bank can be if u r an addict.
Hi,
Had a conversation with someone at the weekend who used his credit card to place a football bet. He won 4k and received a phone call from Barclays as to why a large sum had been paid into his credit card account. When he said they gave him an official warning and said it it happened again they would close his account as no gambling is stipulated in the terms and conditions. Apparently they treated his betting transaction as a cash advance.
Another bank issue to be aware off.
Best wishes
Hi all.
i dont know what day im on but im still on target to pay off my overdraft and move banks next month.
I have no urges just pi55ed off with myself for all the money i have lost. On a strict budget for the next 4 months then i can go out and buy myself a few treats
Self excluded from more bookies the other day. just to be safe. had enuf of the gambling life, the worst thing is i went to a shopping centre with my mate the other day and he got a nice jacket for 185 pounds , and i thought i would never spend that much on one. but then i thought i would put 1k in a fobt lol. also i was looking round with him and i could not even afford a t shirt at the moment. and it hit me hard that i could have brought anything i wanted just a few years ago. Big wake up call again.
anyway im just sitting here watching Die Hard which is a cool film and thinking of the future now not the past , to a life without gambling without the stress and with money in the bank and no debt. A year to go but not that long away.
staying stopped carl 🙂
You are doing good Carlsimon. Keep it up. I know how you feel about blowing all that cash. I've lost count of what I've lost but must be around 10k in recent years. Maybe more, could be 20k. I got a 10k loan to pay my overdraft and credit cards off. I now have the loan to pay and 5k on 2 cards. Lucky for me my bank won't give me another overdraft,
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