Good evening diary
Good night all, i had another strong day free of gambling.
Dark Place
Day 22 and working as usual, feeling good and not anything getting in my way of slam dunking those eveil spirits, hope i can keep in this frame of mind ! not felt so good for a long time !
Have a great day everyone, Dark Place /
Your post to me brought the biggest smile to my face this morning. Thank you. I cant wait to see what you come up with. I actually sat myself down at my piano last night.... haven't touched it in years.... but unfortunately, my numb fingers didn't allow me to get very far.
Saturday and day 23 since i decided to change my life around. Looks like rain today, so it will be a day in watching sport on the tv. My little isaac likes his skylanders and they are costing me a bomb ! fades into insignificance compared to what gambling has cost me. Have a great weekend everyone, Dark Place
Good morning again to my new life, one of peace and joyful serenity. I had occasion to be in a strange situation yesterday, around 30 people that were totally staggered at my local pub that i would not join in to the grand national sweepstake ! i gave them the £2 in the end and gave my ticket to an old man sat alone ! it was distracting to watch how eagerly he then seemed to watch the race ! i was strangely numb, happily there are not to many situations like that.
Today is a great day, beers with friends/darts and then west ham v liverpool all enjoyed at my local pub !
So day 24 will be a great day, hope everyone enjoys too.
Dark Place
DP
fella thanks for the kind words upon my thread, they do mean a great deal, my friend we are on this journey together side by side, we all count the same in my eyes.
it is a great shame when folk like sad G disappear from the forum but we can't do any more than be here for ourselves, bottom line is recovery is the one selfish act we can take that will have a good effect on those we hold dear.
Folk will come and go, I wish them well, again we all count the same but none too much.
Keep making the right choice fella, well done for not crumbling to peer pressure yesterday regards the sweep stake.
Choices like that will serve you well on your journey
duncs stepping forward never back.
Day 25 arrives, i have 1 day holiday booked to look after my son. Another gamble free day ahead, Dark Place
laying in bed wwith my ipad, seems to be a beautiful day today. Nearly 1 month since i gave up, 26 days and never felt stronger.
Have a great gamble free day everyone, Dark Place
Dark place,
I love your feeling stronger even it its in bed with an IPAD. I have not been on for a few days so sorry for the late entry but i wanted to tell you i was with family for 4 days straight giving them Quality time. There is beauty when you see a wife and child seeing a happy man free of G stress. This might all be temporary but even if it is i will always remember such times. I hope your doing well and keep on fighting the fight. I am fast approaching the 3 weeks mark something i never thought i could do especially when this addiction has had me for over 25 yrs or so. I got rewarded yesterday too with a Spurs win 5-1. Believe it or not i was tempted to gamble on that game just for a flutter to make the game more enjoyable but i soon kicked that thought out the window. I am def becoming to terms with i am a CG and always will be. I know now this is a fight to the end. When i first read your diary i was thinking my god your so strong i will never be able to fight the urges like you but i did and that is such an awesome feeling.. All the best day by day mate..
CL
Hey DP,
That's the spirit!!!! proud of you my friend, onwards you go,.. stay strong, calm, happy and enjoy each and every day you gift yourself without destruction crossing your path 😉
Well done and take care
S x
I am also very proud of you. And I am going to follow your lead! Just keep those kids of yours in the forefront of your mind as much as you can.
Another gamble free day dawns, number 27 in total ! been speaking about horses last couple of days which is not good but with my currnet strength of mind i do not intend to be giving into the devil !
I have not felt this good for a long time, my blood pressure is noticeably better too !
Wishing everyone a great day and thank you Carla & Sandra for your posts, it's what keeps me going in times of weakness.
Dark Place x
Yesterday was a tricky day, good friend has lost his way a little after a period of sustained abstinence. I could have supported him better i think but its sometimes like the blind leading the blind ! even tho i have not gambled, i have to confess i still like to be involved in the emotion of seeing if someone has won and beaten the bookies even if it is not me anymore. It's twisted i know but that is the destruction gambling addiction has inflicted on me.
Even more challenging is that for the 6th time in a row a very good source has given me a horse tip that has won, sickening ! i came close yesterday to putting a bet on yes i would have won a lot of money but in the end lost as always.
So i am pleased to say day 28 has arrived and my bank account looks stable no major ups and downs just plain old normal direct debits and the occasional withdrawal.
Sun is shining all, lets enjoy the day and the feeling of not being in the devils grip !!!
Dark Place
Day 29 and end of the week ! this signifies almost ONE month without gambling when today and tomorrow is completed ! i stopped on the 13th March.
After the first seven days, i can honestly say it has been relatively painless. Mainly because i keep those thoughts of turmoil in the front of my mind, i just dont want those feelings ever to come back for real. I am done with the pain of gambling.
Hope everyone has a great day and restful weekend. Dark Place
Day 30, been a while since i have felt so good about myself and my ability to be able to control my gambling urges. I know the road will be a never ending one but at leat i am on the correct journey. Wishing everyone strength in their battle with this illness, good night all. Dark Place
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