Aegretudo Egretudo !

After today i will be 16 days clear, feeling the benefits again of not having the head in the sand. What a dreaded disease it is, I so wish that all gambling would be stopped so that it has to be done on the course or at a meeting or in a special casino/club ! guess that will never happen , Govnt are making to mach revenue from taxes ! sickening truly sickening. I hope i can keep strong and my will power keep me free of this now.

Have a great day everyone, Dark Place

Day 1 tomorrow.

Feeling sick by my actions of the last month. Need some time to reflect and collect my thoughts. Sick sick man. Feeling so bad right now. Will be back to explain soon. Sorry mate let you down. Haven't been there for you lately and should have been. All the emotions I never wanted to feel again have resurfaced. I'm feeling broken right now. Back to the gutter for me!!!

G

Day 17 & the light is getting visibly brighter, have a great day everyone DP /

I'm struggling to deal with the emotions this last month has stirred up. With it being so close to Christmas(my wife loves going OTT) I am aware of the damage I've done to our family and what I could have done with that money and the presents I could have bought.

As always the feelings will pass, as long as I stay off the gambling now, and I will get back to my non-gambling ways. You never forget the big losses though. Those crashes come back to haunt me and this last month is going to live long in the memory.

Not going to count the days, just the months. Just need to get back to what I was doing. Life has been so much nicer in the last 10 months. Thanks for your support mate.

G

18 days , was in cardiff last night !late one in the end but no feelings of a need to gamble, this time round i will not be looking at anything associated with gambling ! i have to remove every possible link to what may start me again. i can and will do this, Dark Place

Day 20, back to work and bored to be honest ! i really hate being bored at work especially when i am trying to avoid thinking about gambling.

Hope everyone has a good week and stay strong, Dark Place /

Thanks for your post and congrats on 20 days. I'm too sick to write more now so later.....

D.P.

Thanks for the post and well done on your recovery. Yes, you are correct I need to make the decision to stop and commit to it. Truth is I have wanted to be committed but just haven't gotten there. I feel committed today and hope to continue this.

Keep up the good work.

Tomso.

Hi dark place

Just a quick message to say Well done on the 20 days gamble free,

I was on this site a while back but now I'm back 🙁 day 2 and determined more than ever!!

Keep going Hollie xx

So today is day 21 just my age 🙂

Dropped my son off to school today bless him, children are such a gift and dont deserve parents that blow their hard earnt money down the drain ! they deserve better, i will give all my 3 children a better life ! I am not going back to gambling, never again !!!!

Have a great day everyone, Dark Place

DP,

Just dropping in to say well done mate. 3 weeks free of gambling and there is real clarity in your thoughts; beat this thing for the sake of your kids.

Good luck

D123

Well day 22, no strong urges at the moment ! had a look at the horse racing form yesterday which was a mistake ! not doing that again, once you start loking you are involved even if your not punting ! brings all the thoughs back.

Have a great day everyone, Dark Place

Hey DP.... still not fully recovered but feeling a lot better. Can't sleep though. Maybe 'cause that's all I've done for the past two days? lol I'm so glad that you're back on track. Don't put yourself in temptations way. Maybe you should carry pictures of your kids around with you? always... always... and have a good look at them anytime you feel tempted. That might help you deal with urges. Keep up the fight.

D.P.

Thanks for your support this week, which was much appreciated. Also, well done on your continued progress.

Tomso.

Day 23 and on we go, still fighting and getting stonger by the day. Dark Place