Angel From Montgomery

Hey Joan...and P Doolittle! ..

Wow ..that's some collection of furry friends there.if its affecting your health though you had to draw the line....need to keep your immunity strong inside and out .

your memory serves you well too ..as yep! Cell block H was a late night show here and in the US ..in Canada believe it or not,the same show was called "Caged Women" ...lol ..that made me laugh.

off to make a coffee with MY kettle.....

R and D xxx

Joan.

You really do leave no stone unturned in you quest to find the inner peace to which i hope your efforts reward.

Life does heap piles of dirt on us at times, for me i used to try and shovel it onto everyone else's plate were today i try to use it as fertilizer. To deal with them, to get help to shovel it too, then pot it in the right places.

You keep planting those seeds in your garden my dear friend and i know those blossoms Will come.

Just for today

Duncs stepping forward never back

Thanks so much Rainbows, Rach, and Duncan. I will never take your support for granted. Never. I am working toward being able to give as much support as I get. A little bit closer to feeling fine every day now..

I'ts Saturday Morning Diary:

I have made it 6 full days with out gambling in spite of the fact that I can get there and in there with ease and in spite of the fact that I have money in my account. I do not need the fantasy world of the casino. I am one of those people who cannot use gambling as an escape. I cannot have fun because I am not really there when I am there. I cannot really win because I cannot stop. The fact is that gambling just makes me miserable and running to it when I am feeling down is just like hoping to douse a fire by throwing gas on it. Like David Bowie sang " I'm putting out the fire with gas-o-leeeeeen!" It turns out that I might have a terrible cold virus or something so, am thinking that maybe those poor little guinea pigs might get a reprieve. I will be staying close to home today. I was given another day to do the right thing. For me that is making the choice to not go gambling. I was thinking, just what if this were my last day on Earth. Would I want to spend it in a fuge state or be fully in it. The answer is simple, I would want to be fully alive and aware of everything around me. It is starting to make sense again. Why would I choose to go to hell over heaven? It's a no brainer really... Totally getting back to that garden Duncs. 🙂 -joanxx

Yo,

Thank so so much for your post on my thread .

You really have this ability to cheer a person up, through your words .

Keep going Hun , before you know it the 7 then 14 then 30 day mark will be behind you .

I for one will be here walking the walk with you !

Shiny xxxxxxx

(((((Shiny))))

Hi Diary:

I promised myself I would write something in my diary every day. Got up this morning and feel like I was run over by a mack truck. This cold is killing me. Coughing so hard I peed myself. Clearly not gambling. I can't even breathe let alone tap on a slot machine. lol. Got thru 7 days without gambling and am ready to take on another day. Gotta get back into bed but, am thinking good thoughts about all of you. -joanxx

Get well soon Joan. Sending you hot toddies and warm cuddly blankets.

Take care

Blondie xxx

Hey Joan,

Hope your feeling better soon, having trouble with my internet service, so I'll be on more after Tuesday once it's fixed. Stay strong!

Chicagoguy

Awe sorry to hear your not feeling well. Colds just plain old suck and ones that make ya tinkle yourself are so much worse. Lol yeah I've been there.

Congrats on that week and hope you're feeling better soon.

Thanks Blondie, Chicago and Broken Soul. Again, I don't take any of your support for granted and hope to get back reading and writing real soon.

For Now Diary,

Still feeling pretty much under the weather. Day 8 put to bed now and nearly closing in on Day 9. Breathing is the number one priority today. One breath at a time. 😉 -joanxx

Can't believe the snow hasn't killed off all the bugs, think they are breeding super resistant ones these days.

Hope you are stocked up with lemsip and honey and P is taking care of you.

xxx

Thanks Rainbows.

Hey Diary:

Day 10 no gambling!! -joanxx

joan.

Still smiling too!!

Back to double figures, Something I am so pleased to see.

Just for today, take good care of yourself!!!

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hey Joan,

Glad to hear your doing well. Much congrats on day 10! Hope you are just taking it one day at a time, and say hello to P. Stay strong!

Chicagoguy

Thanks Duncs and Chicago!!

Yes Diary:

10 days and counting. Still feeling like shiteola with this viral "thing" I must have picked up from one of my students. almost thought I was gonna need an ambulance yesterday and gave P quite a scare but, managed to pull myself out of the clutch with the help of some good old fashioned steam. I put myself in the bathroom, closed the door and opened up both the sink and the tub hot water on full blast and the steam really helped my breathing. Anyway, I am here another day to do the right thing and that is to stay the he ll away from the casino and to keep both hands wrapped tightly around my paycheck!! One breath, one second, one minute, one hour, one day at a time. Whatever it takes! -joanxx

Hi Joan,

Just popping in 2 say I am thinking of u 🙂

I am always here if u need me!

Stay strong xxxxxx