Well after some 6 weeks or so of not doing anysort of complsive gambling; I regret to say that Saturday night it came to an end.
In previous posts i was optomistic about the future, selling our old house and being more financially secure each month.
The house sale completed Friday and by late Saturday night i was gambling.
In the months and years gone past i always put my compulsive gambling sessions down to trying to make a bad financial situation better; obviously it never was the case and just made things a whole lot worse.
Being more financially secure; the most i have ever been, i thought would illiminate my illness. How wrong was i.
Saturday night started with just £50 on the online casino, i lost this and began chasing my losses. Before i knew it i was over £500 down.
On the plus side i did have the moment of enlightment and stopped before it got crazily out of hand. I had access to a whole lot more money and it could have easily been an even worse outcome.
Naturally my wife became aware when she saw our bank account the next day (she was working a night shift Sat)
Unlike all of the cases before, this one showed me / us that my problem isn't as clear cut as trying to improve our finances. I am in a position now that i do not need to do this. It is more psychological.
To that end i have booked in to see an NLP practitioner this Friday afternoon and am optomistic about getting some professional help. The first time i have ever seeked this kind of professional help.
NLP therapy has outstanding, life changing results and i hope this can be the same for me.
It costs money but what i spend on this will potentially save me thousands in the future, along with my whole life as i know it.
Despite the warnings on my previous post about being financially secure i am not in the place that i thought i would. I am fortunate to now know this (at a cost) and fortunate that i am not back to square one in the financial situation. I can still make this work and will not give up until i have.
Looking forward to Friday and letting you know how it went.
It's not and never has been about the money. It's about the act of placing the bet, what it gives you, why you feel the need to do it.
My husband fed me that line about "needing to invest" because we were short of money, it's nonsense. It doesn't take account of the net outflow of cash. And it doesn't take account of the CG's need to self medicate.
CW
Sounds like this could be a good wake up call for you. Make the most of this opportunity. Speaking with the Mrs and get this available money out of your reach its only a temptation and that is the last thing you need.
Good luck for Friday and keep updating it will help.
Ps
You have the most confusing name I've seen lol
Hello everyone and thankyou for your advice and guidance over the past week.
My NLP session went really well on Friday and i am optimistic about my 2nd session this Friday.
It opened my mind up to how my mind works and the concous & sub-concous mind. 85% of all our thoughts is done with the subconcous mind. I learnt about how this relates to our comfort zone and flexible zone (out of your comfort zone) I could relate as to where my gambling thoughts come from and how they become a reality through my concous mind.
Along with my practitioner i have been and will be looking at training my mind to control and illiminate the reality of these thoughts. Its early days but i am confident that this will work in time.
I still get up half hour before i would have normally and work on my own personal development. I have been writing a journal for a couple of months now and my NLP practitioner encourages this. I use it to reflect on the previous day and set my goals for the currnent day. I round this time off with listening / watching a motivational clip from Youtube. This gives me the final pep to get me ready for the day. It works for me. Might not be for everyone but i recommend giving it a go.
Looking forward to updating you all post my 2nd session next Monday.
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