Back to square 1

Hi nicki

Thanks for the post it was a nice thought and much appreciated , its good to see u still fighting and wanting that better life , we can learn so much from relapsing the key is just dont give back in and go back to it all and that u haven't

Its a long hard journey this and mistakes sometimes will be made but dont be hard on urself keep looking at the big picture dont see it has goin back to day one if u slip , day one for me is the day we admit the problem and start to do something bout it

Be kind to urself and keep fighting

Castle2

I'm so tired of this now. I've hit rock bottom again and I'm struggling I really am. Just don't know where to turn who to talk to

Well after some thinking and talking today has to be the day where I change my life. If not I will seriously mess up everything I have.

I have made the decision to give all my money, cards to my partner and have said I want nothing to do with money anymore. I have made it quite clear that they need to be hid away from me. This is whilst I get this gambling back under control.

I hope all is well and staying strong

Nicki xx

Hey Nicki,

Sorry to hear that you are struggling at the moment. It is no secret that this is a terribly difficult addiction to nullify. Often people talk about looking at what has gone wrong and trying to rectify things. However, I would suggest looking at what was going right. I say this because I know you had a really good run last year being bet free and feeling more positive. What were the things that made that happen? I think passing on finances is a very brave and positive step. It is something I did right at the beginning and it has helped me enormously.

Try to take the positives you have done really well before and you are putting things in place now to ensure you can get back on track. There is lots of support here for you and I continue to wish you all the best.

Flagg

well good for you and glad ya got someone to intrust that money too. makes it way easier i would think. guess i got only me and yeah im a pretty snakey character. lol lol lol keep up the fight girl.

Well this time i have totally messed up not only have I spent all my money on my card i have gone over as well. I did not realise there was any such thing as a 'infomal' overdraft which will charge me £25 a day untill i pay it off. This has never happened before and i'm feel so angry with myself for ever letting it get this fair. This is a new low for me. f***

This will probably be of no comfort to you but your mental health and wellbeing is far more important than money. If you dont have it, they cant take it and you can't pay it. Ring them and say you never signed up for this, ask for charges to be suspended, ask them for proof of a signed document. This may buy you some time until you can get the cash together.

Justa thought and most important of all,

Take CARE

Blues

Hello day 2. Well feeling a lot better after Thursday. Jyst taking one hour at a time. No urges as of yet, but the block is on my computer so can't do a thing :).

My son has comeback from his dads after being there for a week for half term. I have really missed him and so glad he is back. We had a lovely day yesterday together, we went bowling and saw the family which was nice.

Hope everyone is well and staying strong..

Nicki x

Hi Silly

Thank goodness for blockers eh?

I totally understand the frustration with bank charges- they're like a vicious circle. From experience, its worth contacting them asap- they may suspend/reduce charges.

Well done- keep up the great effort!

Irene

x

Sorry to hear about the slip. Guess I was floating in them too not to long ago and was on quite the bender so to speak. Guess it's the aftermath that wakes us up again. Kinda think we both know the only way out of this mess is to just stay clear of it. Yeah easier said than done but were only adding to the damage we already have. Hoping we can both kick it this round.

Thank guys!

Day 7 :). It's been one week and I'm finally feeling like I'm getting myself back on track. There haven't been any urges and I'm feeling positive.

Hope all is well

Nicki xx

Day 8 I'm on which is even better !

Day 12.

Still gamble free. Nice to be back at double figures. Been looking at my wardrobe and I realised all my clothes are so old they are falling apart. If I hadn't of gambled I could of got sone more :-/. Well next pay date is April the 24th! I will not be flushing away that money.

I hope all is well.

Take care

Nicki x

Hey Nicki,

Good to see you putting things back together. Sometimes having that really negative view or recent memory of gambling can be a good thing. Use the resentment to your advantage and then you won't want to return to having a bet.

The way the days fly past it will be April before you know it. Stay strong and positive my friend.

Flagg

Congrats on your days girl. Yeah cant remeber the last time I did any clothes shopping for myself. Hell with the money lost to gambling I could of probably opened up my own shop. Lol. Keep doing what your doing and I see a shopping spree in both our futures.