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hey nicki

carl

Hi Nicki

Well done girl I agree with Blondie you not still prehaps the new name should be super nicki howver dont be going out and buying a red cape lol

Take care and saty strong and just for today I will not gamble

Hugh

Day 51!!

Thank you for the post. God life is super hectic at the moment. Once one thing is done there is still another 100 things to go. I'm on placement at the moment and have a 10'000 word dissertation to do as sell as a 7000 word portfolio. So starting to feel real pressure on too of that there is my son and a house to run so really have had no time at all.

On a plus side I have no urge to gamble at all and feeling fantastic about it. I'm sitting here in my own tonight as my partner is working at my son is at his nannys and that's the time I feel most vulnerable...but you know what no urges at all!!! I feel at the moment there is so much more to life then spending my money on those pointless slots. I know I will have urges but not today. As the days add up I'm feeling positive that I can do this.

I hope everyone is well and staying strong. Thank you again for all your support. Hopefully once life becomes less hectic I can carry on supporting you guys. Stay strong my little gamcare friends 🙂

Nicki

xx

Hey Nicki,

Great to see a post and a check in for another week :). As you said life is really hectic but the positive for you is the realisation that gambling will not be a helpful release. It will only make things worse, reduce your productivity, and cause deterioration in mood.

Wish you well in the coming weeks I remember having to juggle essays, dissertation, and work, crazy times. Now I'm old and strangely I miss it lol!! I didn't have a little one to look after though so I had it far too easy 🙂

Take Care,

Flagg

Day 59!

Gamble free for another week. Feeling pressure at the moment so no time to post on other at the moment. Still gamble free :). Hope all is well with everyone

Stay strong

N

Day 60

Christmas is a coming and no where near sorted boooo. I haven't had urges to gamble and to be honest I have no intention of it. I have little money left till my student loan comes January and that is going towards having a fantastic day with my son.

When January comes I will not be spending any of my student loan on those evil slots. I'm feeling positive that I can do it this time round. One step at a time.

Stay strong all

Nicki

Hi Nicki,

Thank u 4 ur support and kind words on my diary. It means a lot 🙂

Well done on 60 days gamble free, u r doing brilliant.. I am soooo proud of u 🙂

U can do this!

Have a gr8 nite xxxxxxxx

Good Morning Nicki

Well done girl on breaking the 2 month mark the best Xmas present you could give me is for you to stay of the gambling and making the magic 100 days mark, I know you can do it you super strong

Take care and stay strong, just for today I will not gamble

Hugh

69 days 🙂 (10 weeks tomorrow)

Well Christmas is nearly here and I have got all my presents. Just need to wrap them all ughhh. I'm looking forward to it now and feeling lucky that I get to spend it with my fantastic family. I also turned 28 yesterday and I'm sure this time 2 years ago I was flushing all my birthday money down the toilet im the casino. So i have come a long way. I plan to put my money towards a weekend break with my partner.

I really do hope everyone is ok. We can all beat this addiction together. Stay strong everyone

Nicki

Hi Nicki,

Ur last post was gr8 2 read 🙂

Happy belated bday 4 yest, wot a gr8 way 2 spend ur money a wknd away with ur partner...much more rewarding than gambling, and well deserved 🙂

Well done on 10 wks gamble free, u r doing brilliant 🙂

Ur positivity and determination shines thru!

Have a gr8 nite xx

Day 72.

Well it has felt like a long time since I have felt like this. The niggling feeling of wanting to gamble is back. I put it down to feeling stupidly lonely. My ex partner has my son till Boxing Day (it's his weekend and it it's his turn to haveChristmas day witn him) this has left be feeling down. Christmas Day with out my son and my partner is going to suck :(. My ex is a nasty piece of work and I sometimes wonder why I let this happen, but as everyone keeps reminding me I have to be the adult and not take into account what a w****r he is and let my son spend some time with him. Even though that man constantly puts me through hell on a daily basis. Grrrrrrr I feel sad

Just to make clear I would never stop

My ex from seeing our son. Just at times he makes me very angry when he uses his son to hurt me. Including stopping maintenance which he has done now, and being verbally abusive constantly. I'm feeling very angry today so sorry for the ranting

Lol lol lol oh girl have I've been up and down that road before with the ex. Hell the a-ss was forever withholding payments. Yeah when ever i had a bad word to speak of him could count on not seeing a payment for about a month. Lol yeah happened like every month. Lol lol lol the a-ss knew exactly how long ya had to wait to complain about nonpayment and would send it the day ya could. Lol boy so glad to be done with that cr-ap and better yet not seeing his a-ss at my door. Hell I gave up taking his $832 a month payment like 4 years early and worth every cent not to have to deal with him. Lol. Guess everything went a-ss up from the day that went into effect. My boy 18 sitting in a mental health institute for attempted murder, and my girl In treatment foster care for drug addiction and bipolar disorders. Yeah he had custody of them when all this happened and guess were all in a better place not having to deal with him.

Hi Nicki,

Sorry 2 read about ur situation, u can have ur very own Christmas day with ur son... I am sure he will love it and there will be lots of smiles 🙂

Stay strong xx

I sat here thinking should I come back, should I tell the truth or should I just ignore the fact I gambled, but that wouldn't solve anything. So here I am admitting I gambled feeling pretty sh*tty and a failure. It wasnt much money but still I know if I had it I would of gambled it. So here I am back to day 2

A

Nicki