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Hi Bamb bless you, it’s awful worrying about our partners. I’m in similar situation worried sick my partner will walk if I ever told him so I’m not. It may or may not be right and/or moral thing to do but I know it will finish us if I told him. Yes gambling may thrive on secrecy that’s why I hold myself accountable on here what might be right for some may not be for us. As long as I put things right now. Don’t feel like you should do something like tell him when you know it’ll break you up just do right by him now by not gambling or on the other hand tell him if you think it’ll help you. In other words just do what YOU thinks best hun it’s your life. I choose not to tell my husband it would finish us and I’d never be able to make it up then. I know when you look back it’s awful so so many times I wish that I could turn back time. I understand completely. You’ve not gone on it’s good your able to open up, hope I help in some small way x bestest of wishes hun x Lulu

Hi Cookie x I’m popping those urges, thanks for your encouragement and support too Cookie I’ll post on your diary soon too x bestest wishes x Lulu

27 days gf!

Hi lulu he did not ask again about my outgoings last night but if he asks again i wont lye to him i will just be honest and hope for the best . Everyone makes mistakes but yes its hard isnt it i feel so ashamed of myself and i guess we did this to our selves so i want to get myself out of it . 40 days gf today which is great . Thanks lulu you are really helping me too take care stay strong x

Yay 27 days is brilliant. Have a great day Lulu, just keep doing what you are doing as it is working, let's stay gamble free together, one day at a time again for another week.

Wilsy x

Hi Bamb please don’t feel ashamed we are only human and it’s a really strong addiction. You’ve nothing to be ashamed of, if anything be proud because your fighting this terrible addiction. Glad he didn’t ask relieved a bit of pressure for you. We can do this Bamb, we are doing it. Bestest of wishes Lulu x

Hi Wilsey 28 days today! Yes I with you one day at a time x bestest wishes Lulu x

28 days today feels good again no real urges just thoughts, one day at a time

Well done Lulu a full 4 weeks under your belt and you are feeling good. Yes one day at a time nice and steady.

Your friend Wilsy! x

Jesus shocking news! The mum of my grandson and my sons exgirlfriend has been stabbed by her boyfriend he said he wanted to kill her. He’s locked up on remand and been charged with ABH which may be changed to Wounding with Intent, Threats to Kill and Criminal Damage. He broke in punched her then stabbed her. My grandson and her daughter were in the house in bed, my grandson slept through everything but her daughter didn’t. Makes my skin crawl to think that that psycho was around my grandson, feeling shocked. Normally bad stuff drives me to gamble but I’m just worried about my grandson, we are having him Saturday. Shocked.

Hi Lulu hope ur ok sorry to hear your family is going through this nightmare it is so shocking when these things happen hope she is ok . Glad your grandson stayed sleep. Thanks for you kind reply lulu i spoke with hubby about my outgoing not all of them and he has offered to pay my share of the rent ГЎs ive not much left once bills go out . He didnt ask why but i think he knows really im so relieved to have a break from money worries and if anything fГЁel so grateful . One day i will confess all but like yourself it will be when im ready and strong enough . Take care stay strong xx

Hi Bamb I’ll message you later just wanted to let you know I’ve read your post just got bit on at minute but still gf 29 days spk soon take care and stay strong too x

Hello Lulu. So sorry to read your tragic news.

I hope the childrens mother makes a speedy recovery and the children are ok. It must have been very traumatic for the little girl and your grandson will be very upset.

I can't imagine how you must be feeling. Take care...stephen

Hiya Bamb I’m back, been to see family. Still shocked can’t believe what’s happened. Glad you sorted something out with your husband. Hope your feeling brighter too today, stay strong and gf x bestest wishes x Lulu

Thanks Stephen for your very kind words x yes I’m still in shock and keep thinking that that bloke was around my grandson for last year or so makes my skin crawl. We are having my grandson over Saturday and Sunday so going to give him loads of love. Breaks my heart he’s only two. His mum is recovering physically but not mentally but it’s very early days, I have ptsd so understand what she’ll be going through. I’ve told her not to bottle anything up and talk to me anytime also to see a professional counsellor. It’s the months and years ahead that will affect her. Millie the little girl is a bit of a mess so her dad has took her away for the week, it’ll really affect her. I really want to confront that man who did this and tell him if he ever comes near my grandson again ......... but he’s locked up on remand which is great obviously. Thanks again Stephen your words mean a lot x bestest wishes x Lulu