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Hi lml thank you yes it’s not good the ex boyfriend is in Court 9th April so we will see what happens. As long as my grandson is ok I’m alright x no I won’t gamble that would really mess with my head your so right and I do need a clear head right now especially thanks lml hugs and keep strong bestest wishes Lulu x

Hi Stephen thank you, your words of encouragement mean a lot especially now! x I’ve barely thought about it then had such a strong urge that it almost took over that was this morning before work. Totally took me by surprise and I followed the urge through by searching for websites but K9 blocked Life saver that is it’s shocked me to be honest. It’s like I’d not learnt a single thing the urge just ‘controlled’ me? Don’t know if I’m making sense but basically I’m sure I would’ve gambled if not for the blocks. I really tried to get through the blocks too, after how much I’ve learnt about gambling too it’s just crazy! I’ve had other urges but not like that I think I let my guard down. Not be doing that again. I really thought being busy would be a kind of block too so think I definitely let my guard down. Live & learn I’m going back to reminding myself how awful I felt 35 days ago. Thanks again Stephen your words helped a lot as it’s shaken my confidence a bit:( hugs bestest wishes Lulu x

I get that too just like a sudden urge of I have to gamble, but I have put blocks in place, when the tide settles it's crazy how the mind will just try and over ride all rational thoughts. Stay Strong.

Hi lulu 35 days gf well done you . Im having same problems at the moment lots of urges trying to ignore them . I thought to myself today maybe i could just have a look but i definitely cannot i would play its crazy isnt it. Stay stong we can do this just got to keep busy lol

Hi smashed do you well I’m obviously not happy that you do get urges like that but it’s nice to know I’m not on my own bless you. It is crazy it’s like a different brain with different thoughts etc. I hate gambling now and know everything bad about it but it still didn’t stop it crazy it is. Thanks for your post smashed long may we continue gf! Bestest of wishes x Lulu. Hi Bambi you too then it’s madness when we know what we do about gambling stay strong hun and keep clocking those gf days up bestest of wishes Lulu x

36 days and after yesterday which had shook my confidence a bit I feel more determined than ever! It’s not getting me into its clutches anymore. I keep reminding myself of how s**t I feel when gambling as well as obviously ‘loving’ it. I also keep reminding myself that I’d never be able to win as I’m (my brain) is addicted to the actual playing of the slots. I’d get further and further into debt again and would feel awful. On Monday I paid up my pawned jewellery and I’ll never pawn it again. I also paid £147 for a debt and some other things like helping my son out. My credit rating will be c**P for years yet as I still have a CCJ too. It’s depressing thinking about it but I’m making inroads slowly. I’ve also started paying a couple of friends back what I borrowed for gambling:( as long as I stay in straight and narrow things can only improve....I also remind myself of that. Stay strong everyone bestest wishes Lulu x

37 days and no urges as such. I will stay gf!

Well done Lulu x

Thanks Wilsey x

38 days! I will not gamble

Thanks lulu im feeling much better not had any urges recently thank god . Well done you 38 days gf hope you are ok too Bambi xx

Hi Bambi good glad your good x I’m good too thanks hun just one small urge when heard an advert on radio in car for a gambling site and they played the music of a slot which I used to chuck my money at, all sneaky ways to tempt you aren’t they especially for a cg. Anyway the urge passed pretty quick thankfully bestest wishes Bambi Lulu x

well done staying strong through rocky times.days are rolling by.i got an offer from a new casino in the post offering free spins.no such thing as a free spin with me.probably a subsidiary from one I blocked.when I was playing I never got these..only since I banned myself.last time it came in post I was angry .this time I ripped it up and chucked it in the bin before I could read the name.......not today thanx

Well done Cookie not today or any other day hey. I’ve been watching some really good videos on stopping gambling and the massive lie that gambling is, made me even more determined and from 38 days ago I was/am a non gambler! Bestest wishes Cookie x

Absolutely shattered (we are in process of moving home)but no urges today bar one from an advert in radio and slot music I recognised playing. I’ve watched videos on YouTube and read on here, so sad to see new ppl. I want to help but don’t feel properly confident enough to give the right advice yet still very early days for me. Everyday truly is a blessing now I don’t gamble, I’m starting to get my old and new interests. I’m fully ‘with’ my husband and no more irritability and awful depression with him after a loss (lot more often than ‘winning’). Going to bed now knowing that when I wake up it’ll be to another gf day 🙂