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Well done Lulu, get day 6 out of the way, a full week tomorrow, well done and thanks for posting to me over the weekend.

Take care

Wilsy

Thank you Lulu for my post, brought a tear to my eye, really appreciate you can understand my feelings, letting go is hard when you don't want to believe someone is rotten but I've seen it now, there is nothing I can change or do, just leave them to it, destroying other peoples lives along the way. I want no part of it!

Have a good counselling session.

Wilsy x

Hi Wilsey will post on your diary soon. I hadn’t thought of that 1 week! Sounds good. Hope I can help a bit i understand pain all to well unfortunately. Some People can be very cruel and nasty can’t they, don’t understand how ppl can be that way to be honest best wishes Wilsey x

Be one week later tonight very happy with that. Not many thoughts on gambling as had counselling today and it was a very heavy session. I left with stinking headache and had to lie down quiet etc to get rid of it. All fear and anxiety based. I know that’s another reason I gambled, to stop thinking. Counsellor says very well done but I said but it’s cos I’ve self excluded and also have no money or I would gamble, she said don’t pull myself down and that I should be giving myself pat on back and not pull down my achievement. We probably all do that hey. Anyway nearly a week gf 🙂

Hey love...thanks for popping over. .....and well done on those 7 days...the early ones are sooooo hard love...but as each day adds up...it improves...
Hard for you to beleive that now...
I was the same.....could never ever imagine my head would be free from the call of the online slots. ...the thrill of a spin..the anticipation of a win....
Accepting that gambling had beaten me...stole from me...turned me into a person I didn't want to be. ....
And now....today ...I'm happy with who I am...and so refreshed with the journey I've been on the last couple years. ...
It wasn't easy love....but to feel how I feel now is priceless...
No online slot gave me this feeling....
Soooo you keep up that fight love..
When that lousy addiction trys tricking you again...
Stand tall. ...and shout in its face
"I'm worth more than you...so get lost "
Or something stronger lol
Xxx

Hey Loxxie thanks for your post yes that’s what I’m after feeling good about life again. Everything you say is true.thanks for support Loxxie xx

8 days! Didn’t post yesterday as really busy but I’ve soon forgotten how bad I felt before and I searched for online accounts I wasn’t self excluded from and found one. I’m all registered ready to go but I so don’t want to as well that’s why I’m here, first thing I’m doing is self excluding straight away. Gutted that I’ve weakened but also feel good that I’m on here confessing and facing up to things. Can’t believe how strong the pull is I mistakenly thought it would get less strong a pull it’s so very hard

Have self excluded highest they do five years wanted permanently but wasn’t option for that. Feel bit better now it’s got rid of that warring inside my head shall I shan’t I. That is very stressful and gave me tension headache but now I just can’t do very good. I could still search for another but it took me hour and half to find that one and I think I’ve learned my lesson. I’ve had 7 stress free days not gambling the 8th day was stressful searching for a site and then the warring inside my head, that has put me off now plus I feel accountability to everyone whose given me support on here and that also helps. Hurdle overcome. Very strong urge battered down, get lost gambling I don’t gamble anymore

Hi guys, my name is Colleen, Jesus what can I say gambling is completely and utterly ruining my life, relationships, friendships I cannot stop!!! The amount of money I’ve blown is unbelievable

Colleen you need to start your own thread, go into the newcomers room and start your own post that way ppl will respond to you

Hey Lou
Firstly...soooooo glad you fought the fight last night..
A little tip that helped me in very early days when I thought about returning to a site...
"Would you put yourself out to meet a mate who constantly stole from you...who made you feel like c**P after...someone who deprives you of time doing things with family and friends...someone who turns you into a selfish person...etc etc "
No...you wouldn't give that person the time of day...
So when that thought pop's into your head...
Don't let it manipulate back to the depths of despair..
The sun's shinning here today...hope it's with you as well xx

Good post Lulu, just keep telling those urges to do one!

Wishing you a peaceful day

Wilsy

Ah thanks Loxxie and Wilsey so good to get your posts encouraging me 🙂 I’m sooo glad I fought and won it doesn’t bear to think how I’d feel now if I’d given in. That’s really good idea Loxxie and makes total sense, I’ve had a few thoughts today and tried that out and it does work! It makes you see gambling for what it is instead of that thought that you could win, that’s got me so many times and seeing it like that brings it home more xxx Hope you’ve had peaceful day to Wilsey xxx 9 days tonight! So so glad I didn’t mess it up! X

So tired after work this morning but happy I didn’t give in to the gambling. Every time I’ve come on here then relapsed again and come back again I have learnt things but this really is the last time I can’t take anymore. Not gambling gives me a peace of mind and heart that is too valuable to throw away. Best wishes everyone x

9 days double figures tonight so so glad I fought that bad urge. Life IS better, no devastation losing money can’t afford to lose no more pawning jewellery (I can get back soon now what I pawned), no more borrowing money, no more self loathing and guilt. Really wish I’d tried this hard to stop for good before now, so much wasted money time and self esteem. I’ve been gambling on and off for so long over the years I can’t pinpoint when it became an addiction for me, probably that very first game of bingo and spin of the slots. Free now, long may it continue. Self exclusions working well but still going to get a blocker when paid, skint at moment but that will soon improve. Get lost gambling devil I’m not gambling anymore