Day 9:
Vivid dreams of gambling, lost 50 pounds at a time and doubling my betS until taking payday loans. Eventually woke up, relieved.
Another stark reminder of how evil gambling is.
Day 10:
In double figures now, still going strong.
Would be nice if others contributed in my diary, feels a bit alone doing this.
Hey darkhouse....just read your last post and felt like i should comment as i know when i first started on here it was other peoples posts that helped me greatly.
Firstly well done for getting to 10 days without a bet....that really is something to be proud of.
I have read all the way through your diary and it sounds like the only thing you are using to fight the addiction at the momenyt is will power. Dont get me wrong will power is great but it very rarely is all that is needed to help someone in the long run.
There is loads of pratical things you can do that will make gambling far tougher....you can put blockers on your phone/internet that will not allow you to get onto the sites. You could order a new bank card and get someone to scratch the security numbers off the back before you look at the card.
You talk about depression at the beginning of your diary have you considered speaking to anyone about that. It is a big step going to see a counsellor, or even better GA, but believe me it would be a mssive step towards stopping.
Anyway what you do from here it totally up to yourself and you can choose to go any way that you like.
I will keep and eye on your diary and see how you are getting on.
Damo
Well done for getting to 10 days darkhorse!
IT Damo is right though, the first initial period of stopping gambling can be done by willpower alone....
But there'll come a time when those urges and itches get stronger.
I know because I've been there many times before.
Mine seem to hit me after 3 weeks or so. That's when I could do with the added help.
You're doing brilliantly well this far pal! 10 days gamble free is no mean feat! Non gamblers will never realise just how good an achievment that is.
Keep it up darkhorse!
Hey guys, thanks for the feedback. I have signed up for NHS counselling, so will start that pretty soon. I think the gambling is a symptom of a larger problem, break-up from ex has really affected me.
I sometimes I do still get urges, but they are not that strong to be honest. I hope it stays that way. At times, I get very down because of my bank balance and seeing that I am still in 2.1k debt.
Day 11:
No gambling, no urges.
Day 13
Hung paliament in the election, I saw the odds weeks ago and it was 16/1, won't lie but wish I had betted on it.
Gamble free today. This is getting easier and easier.
I had a few 'bets' that I would have gambled on in the last few days that would have come in.
A couple of 4/1's and an 8/1.
However, I see it as this....
Yes, I may have won those bets and been over the money....
BUT, within a month, or a week, or maybe even a couple of days, those winnings would have been squandered.
So I wouldn't have really won, would I?
That's how I see it, anyway....
Keep doing your stuff DH!
Well done buddy.
Moorey631986 wrote:
I had a few 'bets' that I would have gambled on in the last few days that would have come in.
A couple of 4/1's and an 8/1.
However, I see it as this....
Yes, I may have won those bets and been over the money....
BUT, within a month, or a week, or maybe even a couple of days, those winnings would have been squandered.
So I wouldn't have really won, would I?
That's how I see it, anyway....
Keep doing your stuff DH!
Well done buddy.
Thank you Moorey, that is a good way in looking at it.
Day 14 (2 weeks)
Gamble free, frankly don't miss it. Seems to get easier the longer you DO NOT bet. Today I saw on Facebook someone posting a status update where they have lost £600 losing a bet, frankly looked crazy but then I realised I was like that once.
I've read all your journey on this post , don't stop fighting darkhouse . We might not have the exact same situation but I can tell you the experience you've been through feels like mine ! I don't gamble everyday but if I do, I go big . Only gambled twice last year and loss 2 grand . This year I've already gambled twice which sickens me . I gambled back In January and loss 2 grand and 9 days ago ang loss 3 grand 🙁 . I'm not in debt which is currently a bonus . What scares me the most is my wife and I have s massive savings of 45 grand . I just loss 3 grand which would have been s good addition but I just have to accept that I have a problem and I don't want to end up losing all our money . I finally admitted I'm an addict and I went to reach for help by using this site , reading on forums and joining chat room plus speaking to advisers . I wish you the best of luck . Keep us updated . Tomorrow is a big day for me as I will be on the double figure gamble free group !
Sars27 wrote:
I've read all your journey on this post , don't stop fighting darkhouse . We might not have the exact same situation but I can tell you the experience you've been through feels like mine ! I don't gamble everyday but if I do, I go big . Only gambled twice last year and loss 2 grand . This year I've already gambled twice which sickens me . I gambled back In January and loss 2 grand and 9 days ago ang loss 3 grand 🙁 . I'm not in debt which is currently a bonus . What scares me the most is my wife and I have s massive savings of 45 grand . I just loss 3 grand which would have been s good addition but I just have to accept that I have a problem and I don't want to end up losing all our money . I finally admitted I'm an addict and I went to reach for help by using this site , reading on forums and joining chat room plus speaking to advisers . I wish you the best of luck . Keep us updated . Tomorrow is a big day for me as I will be on the double figure gamble free group !
When I first started gambling, my gambling pattern was the same as yours, by that betting infrequently and BIG. It is good that you are doing something about, eventually it leads to gambling frequently.
Day 15
I have no urges to gamble, and I've found that I generally think about it less and less. It used to preoccupy my mind big time.
Day 16
Gamble free.
Golden state warriors have won the NBA championship. Glad the NBA season is over now, that totally eradicates any urges to gamble.
Keep up the good job buddy ! You're doing great ! And thank you for sharing your experience about your pattern on gambling . I'm more aware now that I could potentially face the same problem if I'm not careful . But I must admit last night i thought i was playing roulette and won big , I was so upset and disgusted of myself that I let the demon beat me but luckily it was just a " dream " I mean a " nightmare " Let's beat this demon !
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