Day 98
Nearing the 100 day mark ! Not for the first time I hasten to add though. Just been looking, I've paid more off the debt in the last 3 months, than during the preceding 3years put together !
Congrats on reaching the 100 day mark Michael 🙂 xxxxxx
Day 105
100 days - yippee !!!
Things are getting on top of me at the moment and this d**n hayfever is slowing me right down - grrr !!! Need to be careful and realistic about what I can achieve in the next few months.
Day 112
Starting to get on top of things again now. Debts are reducing, less stressed now about them. Looking forward to a great summer now.
Ooooo 112 days that must feel great! Summer is going to be good for both of us! I can feel it! And then it will be an amazing Christmas as those debts will have gone down and down and we can spend money without the fear that we've had so many Christmases before!xxx
Congratulations Michael. You are going like a machine at the moment. I imagine your debts are in free-fall. I hope your relationship with your wife is better than it was at earlier stages in your recovery. Did you every tell her about your gambling addiction? Have you got a new closure date in mind? I only ask because I keep seeing the title of your diary, which is now in the past. Keep strong and enjoy your summer. You deserve it.
Day 113
Guys, thanks for your comments. Yes, having looked back at my comments over the years, the rants, the stress, the tiredness and fatigue, in fact every single bad thing that's happened is due to gambling. 2 huge binges costing 10's of thousands of pounds. Everything that's happened over the last few years has been due to the financial mess that's left us in, which I've only started to get on top of in the last few months. On the outside, not much has changed - I didn't want it to - why should my family suffer because of my stupid mistakes ? We're still in massive debt, but the rate at which it's shifting is gathering pace. ''Closure" is still probably a few years away, but I'm not too bothered now, provided the debts are coming down every month, then that's good enough for me. Family-wise, and particularly with my OH, couldn't be better to be honest.
Great, glad to hear it!
Are you still spending hours each days doing mystery shopping, online competitions, surveys etc? I imagine you have maybe cut back in favour of a more balanced family/work life. I got the impression in the past that you were trying to do too much and I guess this only added to the stress levels. Don't overdo it. You're on the right track and it is only a matter of time before you are debt free.
Day 115
Still doing the extra work, but only half of what I used to. It's easy money and difficult to turn down, particularly when debts are still high. But my reliance on it diminishes every month. There will come a day in the not too distant future when I'll stop with this extra work entirely.
Day 117
Yet again, I receive a call from one of the online casinos that I've tried to self exclude from on literally dozens of times. They're starting to really irritate me, as I've sent them emails, phoned them and spoken to them online, but despite going through the correct channels to get my account closed, they won't do it. Does anyone know where I stand legally with this because it's difficult when your in recovery when you receive calls, text messages and emails offering incentives and bonus.
Day 134
Just keeping this diary going, but happily, nothing to report.
Micheal
fella thanks for sharing that great piece of news.
Gamble free,with the destruction that it waged I hope you get to keep enjoying the gift you gifted yourself
LIFE
keep making the right choice
Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back
Day 125
Had an urge on Sunday, did the right thing. Got myself out of the house. Down the pub, had one too many, went straight to bed when I got home, and spent most of Monday working on my hangover. Ok, not a conventional way of handling an urge, but in that case, it was effective. Have been feeling a bit down recently, thinking about those "what might of beens". Coming up to 6 years since that fateful first gamble, but today, still afloat, with family and dignity intact. Over half of the kids' lives have been spent with this cloud hanging over us with years of credit card, loan and mortgage repayments ahead, but at least it hasn't sunk us.
Day 188
Still managing to keep those demons at bay. Looking forward to Summer hols, and then from September, and all-out assault on the debts.
Hi Michael
188 days is great
Well done on abstaining and maintaining
Best wishes
Suzanne x
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