Corsa

Oh and the corsa thing is a reminder re new car

No gambling today fighting the fight

Hi Strange

Hope you are in a good space and fighting the fight. Keep your spirits up and one day you'll gt your new car!

Take care

No gambling today. It's history. I am now days off which is a tricky time for me but I am in the zone. Started swimming a mile a day so hoping to lose the lbs instead of pounds.x

Just been to the beach with the dog. Pouring with rain, but totally refreshing back home with a cup of tea and a kit kat. Gonna pick up the new car in a couple of days time so no room for any more slip ups. No gambling today .

Can't sleep so to reading my medicine early on. Some great posts. , ! Have taken some drastic steps to help stop gambling . Have ripped up debit card and transferring only what I need onto daughters old savings card. This way I don't have ability to go into bank and draw out large sums of cash.

Gonna make this my way from now on, will get awkward from time to time but gambling has made everything awkward so not really an issue.

Well done stange, keep putting up the barriers and fighting, its all we can do. Dark Place

Have decided that I need to introduce routines in terms of drawing out cash using my new 'method,' I will withdraw 60 pounds per week. I will top up the car straight away then use whatever is left for incidental stuff. If nothing's left then no more buying. This will allow me to pay my many loans ans credit cards and leave a tiny bit for !"emergencies" ( I pay seperatley into hubby's ac for food etc)

Starts today see how it goes. Day 6 no gambling

Thanks Julie. I don't think I really have an option. If I have any more slip ups I am in danger of losing it. I have had a long hard look at what I do and yesterday I found myself with loads of time on my hands . Hubby out at a meeting and usually I would see this as an opportunity to 'escape' into my own little world. Well that has cost me too much and I am paying the consequences. I find sometimes the urges too easy to respond to, which is why I have cut up the credit/debit card. Yes I could transfer something onto the savings card and withdraw but by the time I go through this process, I have given myself a bit of a talking too. Also there are limits for how much I can withdraw which again puts barriers in the way for myself.

In terms of therapy, I have just downloaded Ruby's book so hope that provides some guidance.

As always I find inspiration from this site but probably need to talk to someone who won't judge me to really make progress. Thanks again for the post x

Oh and no gambling today

Maybe not confused at all many thanks. I collected a new car today. Very much needed but committed to more debt now. Crazy though this seems it has given me a bit of a boost!

I have been running around in a clapped out old car which leaked water couldn't open the bonnet and had a cracked wing mirror. To suddenly drive a nice car again has been a bit of a tonic. This is what I should be spending my money on!

Sticking with my budget and being careful in all other depts, so far so good. Nice to write things down hope to reflect on this diary for months ahead. Day 8 feeling strong but aiming to be more resilient than I have in the past. X

Hey Strange,

Thank you for dropping by. Always welcome to come by 🙂

I am sure I dropped by ur old diary before, but as you started new one, let the chat begin 🙂

I am really sorry about my ramblings on my diary, I do forget that other ppl are reading...I feel like I have a new family here. In all true, honesty is the best policy, we all come here to let our feelings out. This site helps me big deal, and even if I stumble, I get up much more quicker recently. So much power and strength out here, I always get the right medicine for the day.

I love reading, understanding and being part of this great place.

Strange, you fell over, but you are here my friend, you stood up, dusted urself down and come back with fighting spirit. I salute you my friend!!

Keep it up...slow and steady..day at a time

You can do it and u will (no pressure tho ) lol 😉

Take care

Speak later

Sandra x

P.s. enjoy ur ride in a new car x

Thanks Sandra start work soon, half nights, no gambling today not even an urge!

Feeling good gonna beat this , quick change back to work then 2 days off.