D70 my Recovery Journey

Hi Suzanne, I have kept strong and positive this week. Yesterday I bumped into a couple of my mates who are gamblers as I was going into a shop they were off to the betting shop down the road, they showed me 3 tips they had for dogs or horses, I wasn't interested in the slightest and just spoke briefly to them about other things and was on my way, I was quite surprised with myself how much I wasn't bothered about having a bet, as i never had that strength before.

Well its Day 42 clean. Thanks D.

Hi D

So proud for you you 42 days clean that is 6 whole weeks D and you weren't even bothered to put even one penny on a bet how strong is that

Keep strong and keep going you are nearly at 50 days and you can do it proud of you x

Take care

Suzanne xx

Hi all, day 49 clean. The world cup is nearly over and I haven't had one bet on it, haha, next hurdle is the football season but I can do it. Thanks D

Hi D

Hope all is well with you

Suzanne x

Hi all, well another week over day 56 clean.

Hi Suzanne, I am good thanks, hope you are, take care D.

Hi 25 thanks for posting, it is crazy wasting all that money we need to look how we are destroying our lives, it is a pointless addiction, but we can beat it my friend.

Day 63 clean.

Hi all, well day 77 clean. Big test this weekend with the football coupons back out. Keep strong folks!. Thanks D.

Hi D

Well done on your days keep going and stay strong

Winning each day

Suzanne x

Hi all, well I am now 98 Days clean.

Since the football season has started I have to admit it hasn't been easy not having a bet, as this was something I did for that long and it does feel like something is missing. I never realised the football would be such a trigger for me, I no the longer I don't bet on it the less it will try to pull me back in, but just like the online gambling there will only be one winner and its not me. Is it just all the bad moods, depression and anger my mind is missing? because that's all I used to get out of it, nothing else, and I used to put myself through this every weekend, do I want to go through all that b*****ks again, no thanks!!.

Thanks again D.

Hi all, day 105 clean from gambling, keep strong folks. Thanks D.

Hi everyone, well I am now day 120 clean.

These last couple of weeks have been hard especially on a Saturday when I have really really fancied putting a bet on the football, but I have battled with myself and talked myself out of it, just hope I can find the strength every week, I thought I was over all this but it creeps back when you feel like everything is fine. I have been telling myself a little bet wont hurt and that I am been boring for not having one.

I will battle on and win this war.

Thanks D.