Hi, name is Toni and my Gambling problem really started with a winner sounds strange but last year i won £70,000 on a scratch card. I couldn't believe my luck and it came at a time i really needed it. I started paying debts of and getting my home sorted but stresses started to pop up and i started to gamble abit here and abit there just to relax. Before i knew it with in 2 months i gambled £17,500 ish of the money i won. The money i won has dissapered and i'm now using my money CHASING my loses. I know what i'm doing is wrong but i dont seem to be able to help it. This week alone i have gambled £200 which i could of used for my kids and i feel so guilty for doing it. I went onto national lottery last night to add more money but instead i went to the bottom of the page and found this great website and conneted to a advisor call Eva. She was great and i told her things i didn't even want to admit myself and last night was the first time in ages i slept more than 3 hours. Hopefully with advice and help i can get through this and please any advice or even just chit chat really helps. I've got to a stage thinking are my kids better of without me and should i just dissapear to make things better? I want to chnage and i know it's hard but hopefully with all your help i can xx
Day 2
Went coop with my partner and all i could thing about was scratch cards but i held it together long enough to get out the shop without any i think its a big step for me sounds silly but im proud 😀
Hello mummytoex, firstly, a massive welcome to recovery & brilliant work today 🙂
Secondly, this is an amazing website & I can only apologise I didn't notice your post earlier or I would have dropped in to say Hi!
Thirdly, I can categorically say children need their Mummy...I have had to watch my niece & nephew grow up without one & it's soul destroying 🙁 Disappearing is not the answer, change is & change is possible! You have to draw a line under all of the gambling money, win or lose because you are a compulsive gambler & you cannot win because you cannot stop (any win is just gambling tokens & you will give it all back & more chasing the next bad dream.) Take all the help the advisors can give you, get to your GP if you are feeling low enough to consider disappearing & write a letter to the Co-Op with your photo telling them not to serve you anymore!
Today's step isn't silly @ all & you deserve to feel proud 🙂 Time to start fighting for everything you love - ODAAT
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