Day 1 of gf

Well, you are making all the right decisions at this point. It's good to confess to loved ones, and get it out in the open, rather than keeping it all inside as a shameful secret. You will succeed in getting your life back, I am sure of it. 

@gerard-g thank you, yeah I have lied for years to them and you are so right being honest to myself and to others I honestly feel there has been a weight lifted of my shoulders I really do 

For me it's finding things to do to keep my mind busy from the urges so I have started a diary to write things in and also write down what I want for me and my future 

Roses are red

Violets are blue

JuicyJ is going to succeed!

I believe that, I really really do.

I dont know about anyone else but telling love ones about what you have done really stresses me out because telling me over and over again about my mistakes and constantly reminding me what I have done what I have spent makes me so angry and really frustrated 

Yes I get it, its my fault I own everything I choose to do what I did by spending but when trying to get help and have someone to listen to you about planning my future and moving forward 

I don't need that said love one to constantly remind me oh but you did this you did that as im never going to move forward from this because now I'm angry and just want to go gamble again 

I'm trying to be positive to her tell her what I'm going to do by moving on and then I get the negative from her that oh you had this money you had this money blah blah 

I was like yes I did but its gone now nothing I can do I'm sorry its my fault it was there but now it's gone 

I have to be strong I am going to be strong and carry on but that negative attitude for me isn't going to get me through that so it's a shame but for now I'm not going to carry on speaking to that said love one as I cant do it I need positive people to get me through then I can do this 

I know people will have opinions on this thats fine but us with the addiction it takes a big step to decide to stop and its bloody hard we are the ones owning are mistakes our decisions 

I dont need the constant reminder I have done this that the other I need you to help me move forward if you can't do that then sorry I don't want you in my life 

That's harsh words but I won't move forward if you are negative sorry don't want any negativity in my life from now 

Day 2 for me gf and positive fibes only please 

I am feeling fantastic finally I am going to do this and I know I am going to have a better life 

I am 100% positive I am going to do this I use a diary and it really helps me to be better and write my urges feelings and I have been really distracted my self by doing something new and different everyday 

I'm finally feeling less stressed anxious I know its still early days but I'm feeling really good 

I also applied for new jobs today as well so hopefully have a new career path also 

Still got a long way to go but I got this stay strong and I can do this ? ? ? ? ✨️ ❤️ ? ? ? ? ✨️ ❤️ 

@gerard-g love this thank you so much its day 3 and I'm feeling good I am 🙂 

Glad that you are feeling great and going strong. Keep smashing it juicy! You're doing an amazing job.

Andy

@ags thank you I really am I started a jigsaw and colouring I am 32 but it has really helped me 

Also I have put all the blocks in place and im finally getting out of my house leaving my phone at home and actually seeing outside instead of a computer or phone haha 

Also actually talking to people about life other than money worries as like I say I'm not in any debt never have I been always paid bills just use spare money also if I won I would use that 

But its all going good at the moment 

Day 6 now for me and its hard now already, 

I feel like I'm having withdrawals hot sweats etc not wanting to go sleep tonight has been hard all I want to do is gamble but I have to stay strong I will do that but its hard 

Hi Juicyj,

Youre doing so well. Sadly no one said it’s easy, quite the opposite. ?

Also, loved ones do not understand, how can they? They will NEVER in a million years understand how we can do what we do. They don’t understand the power gambling has over us. 

Just keep doing what you’re doing!

Tizzy.

@tizzy1970  thank you 

I managed to go sleep I made myself I put my phone on the floor lol I have everything blocked and can't get on anything which I'm so glad I do because last night and now I'm struggling 

And like you say its so hard with family and all because they don't get it they don't feel what we are feeling like people say them urges honestly because I have done it for as long as I have its such a struggle to not want to do it but I know I am going to get through this I know I am just have to keep strong keep my mind active and not think about it and take it day by day

Today is day 6 and tomorrow will be one whole week for me and that in it self is such an achievement for me I know its not alot to some people but it is to me its everything because I want to really want to change my life I want to have money in my bank account again and be in control 

As I have so much to look forward to im learning to drive want to start a family etc but I know I won't have these things if I don't keep it up and keep being strong I will lose everything and I have it really good in life and I need to start realising it yes its late on as im 32 but I want to do it more than anything while I no I can 

As I have said im not in any debt which I'm not just always spent every last bit I had on gambling I have always been screwed on I would say that I always have since I had my first job that I have paid my way bills etc never missed one 

I just don't have any savings or anything like that, so while I'm still youngish now is that time to build my money back up and start again 

I have been trying to get more hours at work to help with this as well 

The one thing I have been so bad for as one of my family members have said is that I don't like money it has to be all gone and then I panic because there is nothing left and I think that person is right, but I think over the next few months if I start seeing money in my account again im going to feel really good about it because I'm going to have a life again 

Sorry for how long this is but I need to chat today and get this off my chest as like I say I'm struggling and the anxiety urges withdrawals it's real 

Well officially one whole week of being gf and I truly feel amazing I finally have money in the bank it has been the most hard week ever im not going to lie 

The urges are real but I have kept my mind busy I have starting running 

I'm even going to the cinema on my own and going to have a me date on my own haha 

I'm trying to out myself out there and do new things 

I have even deactivated all social media accounts to focus on myself and find me because I feel I have lost myself a hell of alot but I feel truly great and I'm going to keep going and keep pushing this positively because this time its for real I'm never going back 

@juicyj I hear you loud and clear on this one. 

I am going to be spending the next couple of months with my girlfriend at her parents house and I already know that it is going to be a living hell. They're going to be giving me such a hard time because of my gambling and there won't be anything I can do about it because they're the ones that are going to be helping us out financially in the next month or so. 

My own family and my own friends have been incredibly supportive over the last 24 hours, their words of encouragement have been truly inspiring and it's giving me a lot of strength. 

What can I do about my gf and her parents? There is only so much a human can take, it's not as if I have committed murder or any other horrible crime. Without going off on a crazy tangent, they're all quick to forget that I have funded my gf's life for the last 3 years. She has had so many holidays during that time and didn't have to pay a penny for it. It was all on me. How quick people are to forget things. Sorry to rant with that last bit. 

@richard84

Hello, you arent ranting you are getting things off your chest that you need to because you can't talk to loved ones sometimes because the don't really understand what we are going through as a gambler they never will no matter what they say 

No one will understand the habit, cravings urges that we go through on a day to day basis.

You are so right about them being quick to forget about who's paid for what etc like you say you paid for everything and they forget that they really do like 

I say right I have always stood on me own 2 feet I don't have a mum and dad and have had to look after myself they are alive just don't get on 

I have always been good at paying the bills I have been with my bank years and they have told me that's the one thing I have been good at is that I have never missed a bill 

You need to tell them straight about giving you a hard time honestly put your foot down yes we need tough love but how I see it now is that what is done is done I cant bring the money back I cant change the past and you don't need that negative energy in your life 

I told my loved ones straight I said I get you have opinions and I get you are going to want to say oh but you had money you had this etc but all in all I don't now get over it 

You now have to move forward day by day think positive be happy but how I am doing it is day by day writing ideas of new stuff I can try like im going to the cinema on my own who does that lol I do because it's something I have never done but I want to try lol 

But remember this be you be positive and be happy and most of all remember why you are doing this because like I have said in my journey so far im doing it because I have got a good thing going and I really don't want to lose it I'm still young and can safe myself now 

But if I stay gambling I never will 

Sorry to go on haha but here to chat if need to as this site is really helping me