Day 1 of gf

Finally coming up to 2 weeks gf and I can honestly say I feel amazing I feel so good now I really do 

I'm sleeping better as I'm not worrying anymore about money and how I'm going to get it I'm not worried anymore and I know I still have a very long way to go but I know that this is it and this is real I am never going to gamble again because I want to have this life of fun laughter and excitement because I can tell you one thing I am so so happy now 

I have support I have help from loved ones and it really feels amazing it really does 

I am just still so grateful for this group and everyone's words on here and everyone's journey 

We have got this and we can all do this for a better life 

Love to everyone 

It does get better I promise 

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Well today is exactly 14 days gf 2 weeks 

I honestly can't believe it I cant believe I'm even here writing this I really cant 

If anyone had said to me that I was going to be 2 weeks of not gambling I would call you a liar 

I am so so proud of myself because I have done it for years on and off 

And now sat here 2 weeks and I feel amazing 

I'm actually sleeping now finding new things to do best bit of it all playing on the xbox with my friends is really getting me through it 

Yes I have money in the bank still got some debt to pay but my loved one is going to help me with this so it will be paid of  in 2 months 

So I have to be a bit tight on my self but it's for the long run and my future I will get there slowly but surely but I git this and I know its going to get better

Have a good day xx 

@juicyj hi me too.im.7days in now and life is good won't take long to pay off what I owe and I'm.no longer depriving myself life is beautiful x

@littlemix aww amazing feels so good doesn't it, the biggest thing for me has been the sleeping I actually sleep like a baby haha which I have never before 🙂 

It's just good positive fibes from now on for me that is really helping me 

Xx

@juicyj definitely for me too I.just keep thinking yes uve got this carry.on.

7days is amazing for me especially after I did have a bad month last month I chased my losses to.the bitter end something I'd never done I suppose that's what made me realise enough u can't go on like this and that's what made me want to turn my life around I am sleeping better too which us a bonus good luck in ur journey I always say I'd u want something in life this bad youl get it oh and I've got money in the bank winner winner didn't think I'd say I'd have money in the bank I was always on minus x

@littlemix that has been me with the minus in the bank account and I hate it really I do but I have to focus and prove to me loved one that I can stay clean for 2 months and then they are going to help me pay the debt i have and I will be debt free 

To celebrate my 2 weeks I just went for a 2 mile run haha crazy I know but it keeps my mind busy and clear 

But you are 100% right with you no what you want etc I want a baby and to get married so I want it so bad I am going to do it 

No looking back 

Well done though your doing amazing always here to chat if you need to and thank you for being here to chat to me as it really does help xx 

thanks for these words 

I am not rushing into having a baby and getting married like now we have just been talking about it because me and my partner aren't young we are in our 30's and I'm not saying that I cant get pregnant or what not but it is harding for someone of my age 

I dont want any sympathy or anything like that but I have had a lot of friends have miscarriage and lots of other problems not saying that's me but I don't want to leave it any longer we have spoke about having children in the next few years and also spoke about getting married 

Like I have said in my journey my loved ones know everything and are supporting me and helping I have done everything I need to do and I feel great 

My relationship is great everything is great 

Sorry if this is a bit negative towards you but it's up to me and what I do with getting married and pregnant but I never said it was happen right now 

Well its official as of now I am one whole month of being gf I am so happy never felt better 

I got this I am living a whole new life a whole new me I dont get urges anymore potential new job got interview this week 

I am never going back to that cruel cruel horrible addiction I had everything is still blocked and its staying that way I have just done gamstop again for another 5 years gamban is on every device in my house 

I feel so in control of my life now I know its only been a month but I'm just so positive about it all and I'm just looking forward to my future yes still taking it day by day still writing in my diary every day but I got this I truly truly got this 

Well here we go again back to it I have relapsed after 2 and a bit months of not doing it today I went and gambled 

£300+ I won it back and it will take a while to get back but why why why why why 

But I have finally told my partner everything about the loans about the payday loans and how much money I actually owe out and he has paid the lot for me I didn't want him to nor did I ask him to I have to pay every little penny back no questions asked 

He has everything now my bank details my card the use to everything I own 

The house is all signed up to gamban now I have joined a gamblers anonymous meeting every Tuesday where I live as I really need help 

My partner has said this is it if I don't stop now or he finds out I have done it again we are done and im out 

I am so ashamed of my self right now I am a gambler and I need to admit to myself no more secrets no more lies and trying to hide it I need to own my mistakes because this addiction is real 

I have done this for years on and off in secret in hiding 

I have to start all over again so tomorrow will be day 1 again but this time I am going to get help as I really need it truly I can't take this addiction on my own anymore ia am stressed and can not stop the tears from my face 

When will I learn.........