day 3

hello kim sorry to be a stranger.

at a point now where i believe that if i ever gamble again it will be because i want to , which right now i dont.plenty going on at home to keep me occupied .

had an episode at home yesterday where i sat back and thought ....well after that i'd normally run to the sanctuary of the bookies ( not exactly those words ), i didn't and certainly didn't want to. normally got a couple of quid in my pocket now and quite like it , i know full well im well in control just got to not get caught out. am also recently not finding reading other diaries as helpfull as i did so im not really contributing much. i do hope nobody thinks the worse of me for that admission but most people like myself, mainly are here to help themself . i feel my time at this stage is coming to an end and will soon try to let go of the crutch that has been this forum. am truly greatfull for the fact that the forum is here and for people like you kim , not forgetting all the others ive shared with here. i will slakcen off now and one day i hope be ok on my own forever , but not quite yet i want to be sure . i'll still be sneaking about here for a little while. thanks again kim and everyone else that has cared enough to share theirs and my experiences. john.

Hi John.

Nice feeling to have a few quid in your pocket.

Doesnt matter to me if you dont contribute as much now as before. Your contribution is already there in black and white and has about 140 entries. Its your story.

That is enough.

All the best John

Magic

thanks magic mate .(after reading your thread)i got a bit of a jolt think im being a bit hasty . too much to learn here . gonna be around as much as i can fit in to a hectic life for as long as i can. thankyou john.

Hi John, glad you have had a change of heart. I think for those of us that have it bad thsi site is a great help.

Skippy

too right skippy. the only way is up mate.

P.s used to love watching you on the tele!!

Hi John

Kim xx

sorry not posting much but not much to say. yesterday tho i had an afternoon drink with a good mate, can remember thinking , i could have a little bet on the way home , it wont hurt ive been ages without one now. anyway on leaving the pub there is a bookies right next to the bus stop but chose to run for the bus and get on. when nearly home just by my stop theres another bloody bookies , any way i had to take something home for myself to eat ,being in the drunk state i was in a kebab was favorite, so clever me thinks i can order the kebab and go and use the loo in the bookies as i was bursting. but ... i didnt i went in the mini supermarket bought a bombay badboy and nearly ran home!! well pleased thats a real achievment for me even in that state i recognised and resisted temptation.thanks everyone all the best john.

john, what a fantastic post.

good to hear that you are managing to deal with the demons, and that in this instance you gave them short shift.

power to your elbow, and i hope that you will continue to live a gambling free life

today is a good day, and i am living every moment to my full potential

thanks carol-ann i really got a buzz from that situation .all the best john.

Hi John

Kim xx

hello kim hope alls well with you.

a bombay badboy is very hot snack pot noodle thing , guaranteed to give you the trots next day!!!and i love them. as you say up the hammers look after your good self kim, john.

Hi John

Kim xx

glad alls well with you kim , Mmm no prob regard rhe bombay badboy , sure the proprioter will know what you mean and wont try and pack you off with his wayward nephew!!

i had a strange experience this morning , i woke with the old regret/remorse /gutted/guilt ..whathave i done feeling from gambling too much and getting in a spot, then i obviously came round a bit more and kind of thought oh i aint done nothing?? bit confusing but nice. dont get me wrong im still paying the debts , but managing just found that a bit strange . look afteryourself john.

Afternoon John,

Kim xx

hello kim , think you are probably right and of course im glad of your opinion and input .

thankyou all the best john